germy.

Thursday, February 28, 2008

hahah i was reading mandy's blog...and an alarming bit of news caught my attention..goodness. i never thought these kinds of things happened in singapore..

"...walks with a limp and is presently at large. island-wide manhunt has fanned out to areas in Upper bukit timah and near Singapore Chinese Girls School." and its taking place so close to my house no less!i bet my mom is freaking out about it right now. hahaha but somehow i find it amusing how the whole thing just seems so harry potter. but i doubt if this guy turns out to be the good guy like sirius black.

and why does the limp somehow make him sound scarier? hahaha.

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~me~ at 10:23 PM

Friday, February 22, 2008

and its friday yet again! i'm scared by how fast time is flying by...there's just not enough time! help :(

this week is geriatrics...i've got a scary tutor who walks really quickly..and us poor medical students are forced to literally run after her on the wards and up the stairs..yes unfortunately she just loves taking the stairs over the elevator..the other day she flew up 8 flights of stairs and she had to wait at the top for us while we were panting our way up behind her. and she does this wearing heels! i think its her long legs. she's really tall! and i don't think she realises how fast she's actually walking.

haha but i have the feeling she's actually pretty nice la. she interacts really well with her patients:) most of the geriatric specialists do actually..but obviously one has to like working with old people to be in this field. most of the old patients i've seen so far have been really sweet actually..you just have to be patient with them.

haha there was this cute lady who declared one minute that she never had children. then in the next moment she was proudly telling us that she had 3 sons Joseph, Michael and Henry. Joseph is apparently a really good boy:) in retrospect, its quite sad that she can't even remember if she has children..but its bittersweet to think that she was very happy with the family she had in mind. she kept going on about how much she loves her sons. i hope...that when i get old and grey and demented..i will at least remember the people i love, or at least remember the happiness i feel when i think of these people.

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~me~ at 9:40 PM

Friday, February 15, 2008

i'm currently in a hazy state..haha or rather i'm drugged up..thanks to the wonders of panadeine forte. now i understand why some patients would refuse pain meds..they can make u feel drowsy and nauseas and just disorientated. but of course they do get rid of the pain.. :p

so this week has been about palliative care..symptom relief and morphine and empathetic doctors and crying families of patients :( wards rounds have really been kind of depressing..but at the same time they've been eye-opening..i guess palliative care is really not for everyone..can't say for sure that i won't ever consider doing the specialty myself..but i think its hard to have to detach yourself from your patients but be empathetic towards their situation at the same time.

this week has robbed me of my sleep..haha yesterday we were given a class on steps to undertake in the event of the death of a patient. the tutor asked for a volunteer to be the dead body..haha i was half-tempted to give into the lure of being able to lie down on the hospital bed for awhile..anything to close my eyes and take a quick break from listening to the tutor go on and on..but i quickly decided it would be a bit too creepy..hahah.

happy valentine's day. :) :)

nic: my name is 杜雪盈. 你好吗? haha:)
xinli: i wished i could have played MJ with u toooo! haha but we'll play more when i'm back k. & u should have gotten more practise by then! haha..exams aren't too nice :p haha but aren't they always.
mandy: oh wow u do! haha its nice to be chinese isn't it:) hehe. happy new year to you tooo!
ning: hahaha thank you! although i'm not sure if being a cutie pie at my age is considered a compliment..hahaha:)

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~me~ at 7:36 PM

Saturday, February 09, 2008

恭喜发财 everyone!!

my sister was telling me about the usual festivities back home..it feels sad to not be a part of it all..but we take what we can get right? my week really wasn't too bad..reunion dinner night was rainy and cold in sydney..perfect weather for a hotpot dinner! and i'm glad that although i'm not home with family and friends..i still got to spend cny with people i care about here:) hmm but still...of course it feels different here..no lunch at mama's place on the first day..no reunion dinner with the cousins..no endless supply of cny goodies..no mandarins and gaudy flower arrangements that my mom usually decorates the house with..no ANG PAOS. hahaha..well actually..my sis did mention that she's been collecting my share of the loot..so sweet of my relatives to not forget about me:) I guess its one of the advantages of being one of 3 sisters..all the aunties and uncles usually think of us as a set i suppose. so its glaringly obvious that i'm missing..hahah anyway its nice to be remembered:)

i like being chinese:) i like how the family gathers around to eat together at the end of a day..i like dumplings, paos & prawn mee..i like chinese 词语s and how sometimes a 词语 just seems to aptly describe a moment in no way i can describe in english. i think my chinese name is nice:) i like giving tea and mandarins to my grandma every cny and telling her 身体健康! 万事如意! i think cantonese sound cool and i wish i knew how to speak more of it:) i love lanterns during mooncake festival and i think cheongsams are pretty:)

heh. anyway enough rambling. 新年快乐 everyone!!

~me~ at 2:11 PM

Saturday, February 02, 2008

hello. haiii. the sky's looked threatening all day but nothing's happened! just rain la! anyway, I am dying. stuck in a vacuum of time. I don't like the time before exams. hahaha:) I really don't feel like studying anymore...and its only the end of week 2! haha but i shan't whine..its not like i've done that much today.

heheh in honour of chinese new year (which we are all sadly unable to celebrate back in singapore with friends and family), I made pineapple tarts today! they're not fantastic, but they taste ok:) heheh. and at least I feel there is some semblance of the festive cheer in the air now. but now my arm is kind of achy from chopping and hacking and stirring pineapple..hahah so lousy right. hey but i seriously chopped up a whole heap of pineapple. that reminds me..I promised my sister I would try to keep up with the exercise while in sydney..sorry jeh :( I will try harder!

In the last 2 weeks, I've sat in on clinics, seen many many lumps and bumps, exposed myself to radiation in the radiotherapy rooms, chased after grouchy doctors on ward rounds, been up to the prison ward! yes that was cool:) haha I didn't even realise the hospital had a prison ward. gosh. we had to enter several heavy doors..get past an intercom..sign in..deposit all our stuff before entering the jail-cell-like tall door with the "no firearms beyond this point" sign..the prisoner we saw was pretty nice actually; he let us lowly medical students palpate his abdomen. but it was quite sad also cos he had advanced cancer and only had a few weeks left :( anyway. when we left the room the guard yelled at the prisoner "don't move!not one step away from your bed!" :/

cancer..it just feels surreal somehow. what if it was someone I knew, or someone I really cared about? isn't it easier to suffer yourself, than to see people you love suffer? Its like that silly argument my parents used to have..about who would die first. my mum would insist that she wants to die first, then my dad would say thats selfish cos then he'd be left alone. hmmm. anyway, I vaguely remember something someone told me before. something C.S Lewis said about how God uses pain and anguish to shout at us "you there!remember me!" I suppose its during times of distress that we have to remind ourselves He's there for us.

~me~ at 6:37 PM

my search for verve

Thursday, February 28, 2008 hahah i was reading mandy's blog...and an alarming bit of news caught my attention..goodness. i never thought these kinds of things happened in singapore.. "...walks with a limp and is presently at large. island-wide manhunt has fanned out to areas in Upper bukit timah and near Singapore Chinese Girls School." and its taking place so close to my house no less!i bet my mom is freaking out about it right now. hahaha but somehow i find it amusing how the whole thing just seems so harry potter. but i doubt if this guy turns out to be the good guy like sirius black. and why does the limp somehow make him sound scarier? hahaha. . ~me~ at 10:23 PM Friday, February 22, 2008 and its friday yet again! i'm scared by how fast time is flying by...there's just not enough time! help :( this week is geriatrics...i've got a scary tutor who walks really quickly..and us poor medical students are forced to literally run after her on the wards and up the stairs..yes unfortunately she just loves taking the stairs over the elevator..the other day she flew up 8 flights of stairs and she had to wait at the top for us while we were panting our way up behind her. and she does this wearing heels! i think its her long legs. she's really tall! and i don't think she realises how fast she's actually walking. haha but i have the feeling she's actually pretty nice la. she interacts really well with her patients:) most of the geriatric specialists do actually..but obviously one has to like working with old people to be in this field. most of the old patients i've seen so far have been really sweet actually..you just have to be patient with them. haha there was this cute lady who declared one minute that she never had children. then in the next moment she was proudly telling us that she had 3 sons Joseph, Michael and Henry. Joseph is apparently a really good boy:) in retrospect, its quite sad that she can't even remember if she has children..but its bittersweet to think that she was very happy with the family she had in mind. she kept going on about how much she loves her sons. i hope...that when i get old and grey and demented..i will at least remember the people i love, or at least remember the happiness i feel when i think of these people. . ~me~ at 9:40 PM Friday, February 15, 2008 i'm currently in a hazy state..haha or rather i'm drugged up..thanks to the wonders of panadeine forte. now i understand why some patients would refuse pain meds..they can make u feel drowsy and nauseas and just disorientated. but of course they do get rid of the pain.. :p so this week has been about palliative care..symptom relief and morphine and empathetic doctors and crying families of patients :( wards rounds have really been kind of depressing..but at the same time they've been eye-opening..i guess palliative care is really not for everyone..can't say for sure that i won't ever consider doing the specialty myself..but i think its hard to have to detach yourself from your patients but be empathetic towards their situation at the same time. this week has robbed me of my sleep..haha yesterday we were given a class on steps to undertake in the event of the death of a patient. the tutor asked for a volunteer to be the dead body..haha i was half-tempted to give into the lure of being able to lie down on the hospital bed for awhile..anything to close my eyes and take a quick break from listening to the tutor go on and on..but i quickly decided it would be a bit too creepy..hahah. happy valentine's day. :) :) nic: my name is 杜雪盈. 你好吗? haha:) xinli: i wished i could have played MJ with u toooo! haha but we'll play more when i'm back k. & u should have gotten more practise by then! haha..exams aren't too nice :p haha but aren't they always. mandy: oh wow u do! haha its nice to be chinese isn't it:) hehe. happy new year to you tooo! ning: hahaha thank you! although i'm not sure if being a cutie pie at my age is considered a compliment..hahaha:) . ~me~ at 7:36 PM Saturday, February 09, 2008 恭喜发财 everyone!! my sister was telling me about the usual festivities back home..it feels sad to not be a part of it all..but we take what we can get right? my week really wasn't too bad..reunion dinner night was rainy and cold in sydney..perfect weather for a hotpot dinner! and i'm glad that although i'm not home with family and friends..i still got to spend cny with people i care about here:) hmm but still...of course it feels different here..no lunch at mama's place on the first day..no reunion dinner with the cousins..no endless supply of cny goodies..no mandarins and gaudy flower arrangements that my mom usually decorates the house with..no ANG PAOS. hahaha..well actually..my sis did mention that she's been collecting my share of the loot..so sweet of my relatives to not forget about me:) I guess its one of the advantages of being one of 3 sisters..all the aunties and uncles usually think of us as a set i suppose. so its glaringly obvious that i'm missing..hahah anyway its nice to be remembered:) i like being chinese:) i like how the family gathers around to eat together at the end of a day..i like dumplings, paos & prawn mee..i like chinese 词语s and how sometimes a 词语 just seems to aptly describe a moment in no way i can describe in english. i think my chinese name is nice:) i like giving tea and mandarins to my grandma every cny and telling her 身体健康! 万事如意! i think cantonese sound cool and i wish i knew how to speak more of it:) i love lanterns during mooncake festival and i think cheongsams are pretty:) heh. anyway enough rambling. 新年快乐 everyone!! ~me~ at 2:11 PM Saturday, February 02, 2008 hello. haiii. the sky's looked threatening all day but nothing's happened! just rain la! anyway, I am dying. stuck in a vacuum of time. I don't like the time before exams. hahaha:) I really don't feel like studying anymore...and its only the end of week 2! haha but i shan't whine..its not like i've done that much today. heheh in honour of chinese new year (which we are all sadly unable to celebrate back in singapore with friends and family), I made pineapple tarts today! they're not fantastic, but they taste ok:) heheh. and at least I feel there is some semblance of the festive cheer in the air now. but now my arm is kind of achy from chopping and hacking and stirring pineapple..hahah so lousy right. hey but i seriously chopped up a whole heap of pineapple. that reminds me..I promised my sister I would try to keep up with the exercise while in sydney..sorry jeh :( I will try harder! In the last 2 weeks, I've sat in on clinics, seen many many lumps and bumps, exposed myself to radiation in the radiotherapy rooms, chased after grouchy doctors on ward rounds, been up to the prison ward! yes that was cool:) haha I didn't even realise the hospital had a prison ward. gosh. we had to enter several heavy doors..get past an intercom..sign in..deposit all our stuff before entering the jail-cell-like tall door with the "no firearms beyond this point" sign..the prisoner we saw was pretty nice actually; he let us lowly medical students palpate his abdomen. but it was quite sad also cos he had advanced cancer and only had a few weeks left :( anyway. when we left the room the guard yelled at the prisoner "don't move!not one step away from your bed!" :/ cancer..it just feels surreal somehow. what if it was someone I knew, or someone I really cared about? isn't it easier to suffer yourself, than to see people you love suffer? Its like that silly argument my parents used to have..about who would die first. my mum would insist that she wants to die first, then my dad would say thats selfish cos then he'd be left alone. hmmm. anyway, I vaguely remember something someone told me before. something C.S Lewis said about how God uses pain and anguish to shout at us "you there!remember me!" I suppose its during times of distress that we have to remind ourselves He's there for us. ~me~ at 6:37 PM
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