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Wednesday, October 31, 2007

help..i have done NOTHING tonight. haha well nothing productive anyway..i had a slow dinner, i baked cookies, i ATE the cookies (yum!) i got new songs through msn (thanks!:)), i packed my room...you get the gist.

today's class was fun! heh the morning was spent on IV cannulation..i'm just glad we got to practice on models before we actually got to do anything to actual patients :p haha my classmate was removing the needle..and she forgot to remove the tournique and there was just blood projectile squirting out of the model arm..and the tutor was pretending to pull his hair out and yelling "HELP!" oh dear.

sigh. i should be preparing for my presentation tmr. why am i not worried..about my assignments, about the impending exam..i'm just thinking of going home at this stage! i miss home :(
~me~ at 1:12 AM

Monday, October 29, 2007

ouch. stomachache...coincidently enough, we're doing 'abdominal pain' this week in class..haha so i'm not just wishing the pain would go away, but sort of trying to figure what the cause could be..abdominal pain in the left lumbar region..its been going on since thursday. got better then now its back. temporarily relieved by lying down, no exacerbating factors. :( differential diagnoses?

haha so sad :( when i tell my classmate that my stomach hurts, the question in mind isn't "are you feeling ok?" but "where is the pain coming from?" haha i guess we've been brainwashed to think in a certain way..
~me~ at 10:18 PM

Sunday, October 28, 2007

Well..its been a nice weekend:) with much good food and mahjong:) feeling very sleep-deprived now though..oh and daylight-saving hours were implemented yesterday..so we lost one precious hour of sleep..heh but at least from now it won't be shining bright at 6am in the morning..

In Exodus 15, the Israelites sing in praise of God after crossing the red sea..the Father asked us how we react to happiness..haha and i realise i do much the same actually..if i could, i would burst into song when i feel happy:) haha but i don't, for obvious reasons..

Now..i need to get some work done :p

xinli: hmm. i don't like being compared to a lizard-like creature. haha:)
jing: jingjing! hello:) yes its been ages..are you going back in dec?
nic: miss ya too:) heh will you be going home soon too?
gloria: heh i will if you buy me more! haha:) i think i'll bake something this week. cookies?
~me~ at 11:59 PM

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

hmmm. white chocolate cheesecake:) yummy! thanks gloria:)

hehe my stomach was making so many noises during my last class..guess my quick lunch couldn't really sustain me..haha but dinner and cheesecake for dessert tasted very satisfying after that:) just so sleepy now :(

my legs are achy now too..haha from standing around in the OT..haha ok but i shouldn't whine so much. it really wasn't so bad:) the doctors were really nice and explained things to us well:) and abit off the topic, but my tutor thinks my hair is orange-coloured :p haha people keep asking me if i've done anything to my hair colour..but NO i haven't! haha its just fading very drastically. its gone from red to brown to light brown now. but orange? :(
~me~ at 11:03 PM

Monday, October 22, 2007

hehe i talked to lucas today! as in..i talked, he replied, like an actual conversation:)

"Hello?"
"har-low?"
"Lucas!"
"Ah-yeee!"
"How are you?"
"Good."

ok so it wasn't the most exciting conversation ever, but he actually understands what i'm saying to him!haha ok maybe you won't find it that amazing, but it is to me:) to see him move from babbling to one-syllable words to stringing random words together to mimicking people to actually making conversation:)

its ironic, but sometimes the more you see of / talk to a person, the more you miss the person? sigh. the heart ponders....
~me~ at 9:39 PM

Sunday, October 21, 2007

today's mass felt strangely touching. heh maybe it was the incredible choir today:) music really makes such a vast difference. or maybe it was just me. during the bible study the other night, one of the Fathers wanted to join us, but there was a problem with him getting down to the bible study rooms at the bottom of the slope cos he didn't have his wheelchair with him..so we ended up wheeling him backwards down the long hill (very very very carefully and slowly) on a desk chair! i think he felt quite bad about putting everyone through that, but i just thought it was quite sweet how everyone teamed up to make sure he was able to be present for the study:)

heh went for ktv yesterday..sometimes i think its actually more fun listening to other people sing than trying to sing myself..heh especially if said company can sing pretty well..and especially since i can't sing chinese songs too well (i'm struggling to read the fan ti zi half the time)..but i've got encouraging friends:) haai. i need to relearn my chinese roots.
~me~ at 7:16 PM

Thursday, October 18, 2007

"How do we get to heaven?"
"Why don't you just wikipedia it?"

heh. little kids are just so funny:)

i'm having palpitations now! why why? :( and i've been having problems sleeping..so as i lay in bed last night, i was trying to feel my pulses. radial..brachial..carotid..dorsalis pedis..posterior tibial..haha i am such a nerd. oh well..it works better than counting sheep for me:)

i am trying to be patient. God has plans for me. so i'm waiting...
~me~ at 9:23 PM

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

my mom has come and gone..haha she came without much warning, made a mess of my room, then left again in the blink of an eye..haha much like a hurricane..i like to think of her as a force of nature:)

so its back to work again..hai i don't like to think about how much work i've got piled up over the last couple of weeks..but as Father Tony said, "we are all too blessed to be stressed". and as corny as it sounds, i think its true! its so easy to forget about the good things going for us..

hehe i got a surprise in the mail! and its just so cindy. haha even without looking at the handwriting, i think i would have known it was from you cos of the HUGE smiling face. haha. thanks thanks:) its always so nice to get mail the old-fashioned way:)
~me~ at 8:51 PM

Saturday, October 13, 2007

Reading about the ten plagues of Egypt, i am just...wow. The old testament somehow depicts quite a different picture of God as in the new testament..i feel scared at times reading about his work..but at the same time am also in awe of Him. The ninth plague sees God sending an intense darkness over Egypt for three days..a darkness so intense that it could be felt..isn't it interesting how people usually associate the darkness with something bad or evil? maybe its cos of the notion of not visually knowing whats in front of you..its like a horror movie; a horror movie without sound and just picture is just comical, but if you close your eyes and just listen, the darkness and the sounds are unnerving..heh hmm but then again maybe thats just me.

today i met the sweetest old man:) but sadly, he probably doesn't remember me now..10 minutes after i had introduced myself to him, he asked me again who i was..and for some reason the nurses were talking really loudly just behind us and bits of their conversation carried over to us..and when the old man asked me "did the nurses just say that i have dementia?", i didn't know what to say :(

I was just given a nice bunch of chinese and piano songs:) yaaayy. sigh. i wish i could play the piano like that.
~me~ at 1:53 AM

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

tired..and the whole kitchen smells of cheese now! thanks to my mom. i tell you, she is a hazard in the kitchen. haha when i tell friends that my mom is visiting me here, their first words are often along the lines of "oh cool! you must be happy that she's here to cook for you!" haha..would you believe, in my entire 22 years, my mother has never cooked a meal for me before? quite the opposite, i've been the one doing the cooking for her here...sighs. she just asked me how to turn on the stove.

i had a rather unsettling tutorial today :( it was supposed to be a bedside tutorial for lung examination..and the poor patient obviously didn't want to be a part of the class..she was a kindly old lady..and the whole time the tutor was telling her it would just take a few minutes..but her english wasn't too good and she didn't seem to understand what we were trying to tell her, but from the squirming and mumbling and her body language it was clear she just wanted us to stop and to let her rest. i don't know why my tutor carried on like that..i felt so bad for the poor old lady..maybe there is something to this new course after all; they've been highlighting to us the entire time the uttermost importance of communication and of making the patient feel comfortable..but i wish sometimes the tutors would demonstrate that lesson to us as well. i really don't like the idea of walking up to patients and asking them if we can practice taking histories and doing physical examinations on them..but then, how else will we learn? it just feels like so much of an intrusion, and its obvious that some patients are plain irritated (and i really don't blame them), but still nice enough to agree to talk to us..though of course there are the truly nice ones who are honestly happy to help us:) i almost wanted to tell my tutor to leave the poor lady alone. but i guess i was too chicken to say anything :(

xinli: haha when i say halfway under my desk..i mean that when i sleep, my entire left side is under the desk, and the right half isn't! haha so technically, i guess i should say i have to watch out for banging the left side of my head against the desk if i sit up in bed. heh:) and i haven't done a thing to my hair! i think the colour's just fading :p
~me~ at 11:51 PM

Sunday, October 07, 2007

Guess who's here!haha my mom has invaded my room..covering the floor and any desk/shelf space with all her stuff..and she's taken over my bed as well..haha i've been reduced to sleeping on a mattress that i had to half-shove under my desk due to the lack of space..i have to remind myself every morning not to sit up in bed to avoid banging my head straight against my desk..but whatever. i don't really mind:)

today was nice! blue mountains was nice (again) and the weather was perfect:) much to me and my sister's embarrassment, my mom was shouting into the mountain ranges in an attempt to get an echo..haha she was half tempted to start bellowing "the hills are alive! with the sound of music..."


and i just got back from dinner with the classmates..although the food was only fairly ok, it was really quite nice:) haha there was a good share of lame jokes..plus me and yx had a little wasabi-eating competition..the key is to not breathe when you swallow!:) haai. it already feel like its the holidays..although there's a good 6 weeks left to summer break :p
~me~ at 1:54 AM

Thursday, October 04, 2007

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no records of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
1 Corinthians 13:4-7.

it's difficult, isn't it? the more you love someone, the more he or she has control over your life. But the amazing thing is, love isn't simply an emotion; it's also a conscious choice we choose to make..and one that we have to work very hard at to make possible and to maintain.

hmm..a few days after, and i'm still feeling unsettled over what happened the other day :( my sister tells me its paranoia. no matter, i'm just really really thankful to God now.

sometimes i feel guilty for getting impatient, or for being angry. what right do i have? some part of me feels like its just wrong to feel this way. but again, its hard, isn't it?
~me~ at 11:31 PM

Wednesday, October 03, 2007

hello. dear cindy, i dedicate this post to you:) heh i may be a little behind in reading your blog posts, but know this - you do matter!

heh i'm always happy to hear from cindy..her emails and msn messages are filled with "whahahaha"s and all her little characteristic quirks that make me laugh out loud:) i miss her though..cos its different reading something cindy typed or hearing something cindy said compared to when she's physically next to you. she's the sort of friend you have to 'feel' and not just simply see or hear to really get to know:) and i'm really grateful for her:)

and i'm sorry to hear about feifei! :( cheer up girl.
~me~ at 2:56 AM

Monday, October 01, 2007

i had a horrible horrible experience today :( i was so scared..and i still am. all i can say is..thank God everything happened the way it did. There are so many ways in which things could have gone wrong. i'm still kind of shaken up about it..Thank you thank you for the way things turned out.

xinli: i've been having weird dreams too! none involving me filming anything though. heh. ayy. maybe they were some premonition or warning for what happened today :p
nadine: he was a cute fella! although he kept waving his fists in my face..haha:)
~me~ at 8:03 PM