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Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Today, I finally got the chance to say some things I've wanted to say for a long while..but somehow they came out sounding wrong. Its like how you've something on your mind for a long time, and it's just bursting to come out, but you just don't know where to start, and what to say, cos there's so much you wanna say..but then after everything you just wish you could have put things differently.

I wonder if it's just me expecting too much..after all I always tell myself not to expect too much, cos I'd rather expect less and rejoice if I do happen to receive more than what I bargained for..but sometimes you can't help but have certain wishes and hopes, particularly when it comes to people..and sometimes the closer you are to a person, the more hurt you feel by the smallest of actions, or the absence of an action.

Anyway, I'm just glad for now that my portfolio's over and done with! quite amazed that I was able to dish out 3500 words worth of reflective nonsense..reading over it, I wonder if the marker will really buy what I wrote..I mean most of it is true, but it just sounds so cliched. But I suppose thats what self-reflection's about, and I'm guessing that's what they want.

Heh my mom was telling me abit about chinese medicine today. about the yin and yang and the balance and the five elements in relation to the body. pretty interesting stuff, and it's intriguing to know that alot of it literally opposes western beliefs..but if you think about it, some of this chinese stuff really does work, though it's never been scientifically proven. I guess it boils down to individual belief in the end, and what works best for one person might not neccessarily work best for another.

xinli: thanks girl!:) can't wait for this friday again:)
~me~ at 5:14 AM

Monday, January 29, 2007

its a nice windy summery day! and I'm stuck at home trying to finish up my reflective essay :p sigh. figures that the past week has been mostly rainy and gloomy..and on the day that I have to stay at home and finish up my work its a perfect day to be out :)

I was just staring out the window earlier...and I realised that the tree that was exactly my height when we first moved into the house is now towering over the roof..I only noticed cos the wind was coming at the tree from a side and the tree was vearing scarily close to the neighbour's house..as in the whole tree was literally shaking..like it was gonna topple any second..anyway point is is that its really really tall now! and it was merely a metre and a half tall when we first moved in. how time flies..don't know why I'm surprised either..but I guess it's just a marker to me of how much time has really passed..it's hard to visualise at times how much everyone grows, both in a physical and cognitive sense. well ok maybe not so much cognitive for the tree.

my mom was saying that we'll soon hafta get someone to chop it down and tow it away cos its getting too tall and in the way.. haha kinda sad but I guess it is just a plant.

hmm but then again I remember someone telling me of people believing that plants have feelings..so these people don't eat anything plant-ish or animal-ish..well other than fruits I think, as long as they fall off naturally..so I guess that makes them fruiterians :p

sigh ok. I'm obviously stretching to procrascinate right now. gotta finish up my portfolio essay by today!
~me~ at 1:38 PM

Friday, January 26, 2007

happy birthday to us!this year's lucky birthday number is 22+19+54=95! we're getting old man. but I guess this cake was too small to have 95 candles on it..heh so we settled for 3:)

haha my mom kept going on about how this would be the last year the three of us would be celebrating our birthday together..about how we've spent the last 19 years celebrating together..about how we wouldn't be celebrating together next time...sheesh she was talking as if I would never be back again or something :p but yea it's always been special celebrating together:) haha but as xinli was saying..it's funny that my birthday also means I hafta buy 2 presents for my mom and sister:)

thanks to everyone for the well wishes, the surprises, and the gifts:)

in a way..this year marked the end of alot of things for me. but I guess an end means a new start as well right?

cindy: haha but I was just enjoying seeing the 2 of you go crazy! and I'll learn more chinese songs:) so next time I can sing more!
ruth: thanks dear! wish we had had more time to talk when you were back! I miss you ;p
pips: haha you only just reached? feels like awhile since you left already! yea dunno when we'll see each other again. =/ hopefully soon! heh take care k!
xinli: yes you are! heh or maybe I'm just an easy person to surprise:)
ollie: thank you ollie! haha yep I'm one year older..not sure about the wiser bit though :)
~me~ at 3:19 AM

Monday, January 22, 2007

Haha this was abit early..but it wasn't any less special! It just made it more of a surprise, cos I really didn't expect anything that day:) I definitely didn't expect someone to enter the ktv room armed with a candle-lit chocolate cake while we were belting our lungs out:)

It's been awhile since I ktv-ed..and I realise I really need to work on keeping up my knowledge of the chinese language..at least enough to be able to read most of the lyrics off the screen..haha but it was still fun that day:)





~me~ at 7:57 PM

Sunday, January 21, 2007

~me~ at 3:58 AM

Friday, January 19, 2007

feels like I have alot to tell, but everything's sort of disorganised right now and I don't really know where to start, so please be patient and read:)

time's flying by so fast..been almost one week since my last post. so little time, so much to do. spent this week trying to sort out some issues..and I can't say I've reached any sort of conclusion, but I guess the important thing is to try harder and to sort things out as they come my way.

I pray that I may be more patient with the people around me, particularly my family members..and I really thank God for the loved ones in my life:) I'm sorry if I seem insensitive to the things that happen around me at times, but I'll try harder. And thank you. You might not think you did much, but you've really made an impact in my life. What you said the other day made me think, and I was abit confused over what to do at first, but things are sort of clearer now..

I think I really need to try harder to find a church and a group that I feel really at ease with in sydney. My religious life has been shakey since leaving for australia, and I know I can't fully attribute that to my bad experience at creston..alot of it has to do with myself, and I know that in the end I'm the only one who can improve on this aspect of my life. This year was betterm..with merleen and the nice people she introduced me to, they did help me to grow in spirit, but then something still seems to be missing..then there's bible study, but at times I feel out of place cos I'm catholic and I guess things are run a little differently..

Plus for some reason I've felt relatively more antisocial this year..not sure if that can be attributed to me closing myself off to the people around me, or perhaps I'm just tired of meeting new people, which I guess isn't too emotionally healthy.

anyways..half of my hols are gone already. I'm just gonna try to make the most of what's left:)


Heh Lucas looks pretty smart here; he's starting to show interest in current events:) oh and today his godmum gave him a stroller to walk around with..he was so happy! holding onto it tightly and literally running all about the house:) I sort of pity my sister when he starts to walk on his own for real..he's gonna be tiring to have to look after when he's able to run around by himself:)
~me~ at 3:56 AM

Monday, January 15, 2007

Heh friday night was the first time I had bbq while it was raining..haha my mother must have thought we were crazy..when we lugged home all that food..and smoking up the house at 12 midnight..but it really was a fun and delicious night:) heh we didn't get the chance to do all the things we had planned to do at our sleepover..but next time! thanks for the great night you two!:)




and here's a saxophones outing (with me as an horonary member) minus yulinda..take care noelle! can't believe it..she's actually graduating in a few months already! and it's off to work for her..but soon many of us will follow..it's hard to imagine that in the next decade, we're all gonna be graduating, moving on to work, and then having our own families..such a drastic change from our current lives..life ten years ago doesn't differ that much more drastically than it does now I suppose, not compared to what we might be facing ten years from now. but anyway. I shouldn't think tooo far ahead. for now, I'm just gonna enjoy my hols:) despite the fact that I really am supposed to be studying now :(
~me~ at 2:20 AM

Thursday, January 11, 2007

me: lucas, where are your ears?
lucas: (points to his own ears)
me: lucas, where's your nose??
lucas: (slaps himself on the nose)
me: lucas, what do you do when something's smelly??
lucas: (scrunches up his face)

haha simple things like being able to identify parts of your body..such an achievement for any child!:) oh and haha here's my mom trying to get him to call her 'popo'..

my mom: lucas! say 'popo'..
lucas: (mumbles) ma-ma..
my mom: say 'popo'!
lucas: mama!
my mom: popo!
lucas: MAMA!

haha I think the only words he's able to articulate right now are 'mama', 'light', and weirdly enough, 'banana.' he calls chris 'baba.' & I think he's saying jesus when he points at the cross and goes 'je-zuh':)

sigh. why can't everything in life be as simple as learning where your nose is located? no. life's just complicated. so many possibilities..so many decisions..so many challenges.
~me~ at 1:20 AM

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

welcome back xinli! haha when I first spotted xinli yesterday from afar at vivocity she very quickly ran & weaved her way through all the crowds of shoppers & gave me a hug:) haha she's so cute:) I missed her!


heh was so great to spend time as a trio once more with the 2 of them:) we spent 7plus hours yesterday just walking & talking & eating & shopping..and now everyone's back at school :(


the sun actually moves so fast..it's especially apparant during sunset I guess..when it slowly disappears past the horizon..heh cindy was trying to explain to me why the sun appears orange during sunset. & I also learnt some neat tricks to take nice photos :) anyway..I missed talking to you both so much this year! heh but it's nice to be back:)

think the next year's gonna be kinda different once again..what with clinicals starting and all..I finally got down to buying some work clothes..sigh I hate wearing collared shirts. but I suppose its professional. guess I'll just try to think of it as a uniform..I miss wearing uniforms in school:) heh where we wear uniforms but we still have options to make ourselves more comfortable. (heh recall the elastic waistband in rj..& the hidden safety pins for rgs belts)

sleepy. :P
~me~ at 1:27 AM

Sunday, January 07, 2007

Its the end of hols! for everyone in uni..and sort of for me too I suppose..since now everyone won't be as free to meet up..& I'll have less of an excuse to not study..sigh I gotta get my portfolio done by end of jan, and also get to work on the exam...but..it's really been an amazing week:)



Happy birthday huichee:) heh this year's gathering was abit different..with all the boyfriends tagging along..but it was amusing to see all 3 daniels at a go..and it feels weird, to think that once we were all nerdish little sec ones when we first met..and suddenly so many of us are actually only a year or so away from graduating from uni & from work..(of course I'm an exception being I'm currently only a third of my way through my course...sigh.) we've all grown up together, & learnt so much together:)



~me~ at 2:45 AM