germy.

Sunday, June 25, 2006

I've been having weird dreams lately, plus I realise that my sleeping patterns are promptly timed; I seem to wake up at regular 3-hour intervals through the night..like if I sleep at 1145, I wake up at 245am on the dot. So I go back into a fitful sleep, and wake up later again at exactly 545! and its not been just for one night..its been happening many nights for awhile now..gloria says we sleep in 3-hour sleeping cycles..I didn't really believe her at first but now I'm starting to wonder..Or perhaps its psychological..

I received a nice surprise mail for me the other day:) thank you!:) somehow the old-fashioned way of receiving mail is so much more heartwarming:) not that I don't appreciate the convenience of emails and msn..but sometimes the old ways are the best..its just like photos..sure digital cameras are great for taking random photographs and sharing with people, but then I always prefer to look at and think of memories in physical form rather than on the screen of my computer..

and to the people around me..if you're reading this...I don't know what else to say except..don't get too stressed!less than a week left:)

~me~ at 9:51 AM

Thursday, June 22, 2006

Super super sleepy now..ahhh help :P

Sigh I'm never very productive after scenario group sessions..Amanda is really too nice to our class! she's bought us adequate supplies of sweets for the last couple of weeks..guess its to encourage us to participate and at least stay awake in class..haha but I think class is only kinda more distracting now, with the crinkling of wrappers as we pass the bags to one another..but they do keep us awake I guess:) and chocolate seems to taste alot better when you're struggling to stay awake in class..hope she'll still take us next semester..

I was discussing something with a friend today..when a person's in the middle of a panic attack for exams, does it actually help to tell them "don't worry, you'll do fine"? sometimes I guess you're just telling the person what he or she needs to hear at that time..and other times maybe you're just going with your better judgement based on what you know of the person. What's my point? haha not too sure myself..sigh sometimes words can just be a play on the mind, and you're better off not facing the truth. Often we tell others what we think they wanna hear, but when you repeat those words back to yourself, they somehow have a completely different meaning to you. Sometimes its so much easier to help another person with his/her dilemma, than to face up to your own problems.

~me~ at 9:47 PM

Monday, June 19, 2006

Ack I've got a headache now..probably from trying to get through karen gibson's notes..I think she's too smart to be lecturing us..as in her level of thinking is hard for us to follow :P

Sigh was just talking to cindy online..she's leaving tmr for her exchange in US..and I feel kinda sad although it shouldn't really make much of a difference..I mean, whether or not she's in singapore or US, we're still just in seperate places right? maybe I'm just sad that I won't be able to meet with her this break..haha she was asking me for advice on how much clothes to bring..and I think I probably gave her the idea to pack light..so now knowing her she'll probably be wearing the same clothes in all her photos..ya but cindy..even though I make you want to push me off a cliff..haha I'll miss you! and we'll have lots to catch up on end of the year:)

hmm maybe location does matter. At least in singapore I can picture my friends and family doing about the same things at the same time..eating just abit later than me..sleeping just abit later than me..haha but for friends in a completely different time zone, they just feel so much further away..not just in a physical sense...

sigh back to karen gibson notes.

qi: ack yes EXAMS. but the idea of home is motivating:) haha and lucas looked super cute that day!
xinli: haha yes I'll miss that woman too...but I'll be back real soon:) and we have lots to catch up on!
nicole: heh yay can't wait:) I haven't seen you in AGES.
ruth: haha I can imagine..your hair was already super long the last time I saw you!

~me~ at 9:29 PM

Saturday, June 17, 2006

Feeling rather restless..but its felt like a really long day so far cos I've seem to have done alot..though mostly unproductive stuff..hah our fridge is now restocked with food, I sort of organised my notes, I talked to my sister, I went to the postoffice, I had a slow leisurely lunch:) haha I think somehow I'm just finding excuses to not sit down and get to official work..

12 more days to home!haha not that I'm purposely counting down..in fact I usually don't count down cos it just makes the days seem longer. haha but ollie's counting down with her msn nick so I'm sort of forced to notice..the past 4 months suddenly seems to have blew past me:) and I'm just getting more edgey and anticipatory at the idea of seeing everyone again:) but before that, exams! :P

and I suddenly realise that my hair's gotten super long! don't think I've grown out my hair this long since I was a little girl:) haha LM and ollie suggested I get a perm. Louisa asked me to go frizzy. And mythili suggested I shave my head. haha but knowing me..I don't think I'll do anything quite that drastic as mythili did:) sigh sigh. ok ok studytime.

~me~ at 2:02 PM

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Sigh I'm seriously wishing the next couple of weeks will just fly by! but I shouldn't complain..I can finally rid my hands of the project this friday..then it'll be 2 weeks to final exam then home!:):)

And I would just like to say..that I am simply in awe of my mom:) haha although she's unofficially retired now, she refuses to allow herself to sink to couch potato status and is determined to keep her life as active as possible:) involving herself in the choir, multiple trips to shanghai, lunches with friends (at least 4 out of 5 weekdays!), mahjong (of course), dancing lessons (although I'm really having trouble picturing her doing salsa) and even a small little side buisness helping my dad sell wine..plus she'll be starting an introductory study course on traditional chinese medicine in a month's time..

I think my mom must have been quite the social butterfly in her younger years..haha maybe she's now trying to make up for the last 40yrs of inactiveness when she was working..haha and I've always thought my mom should expand on her singing talents..although we do complain whenever she sings..I honestly think she's got a pretty strong voice:)

I wonder what I'll think of my life now when I'm old and graying and retired..will I laugh? or cry? probably both..

~me~ at 10:48 PM

Sunday, June 11, 2006

A cold windy day...the weather's not helping me to stay awake..I didn't sleep much last night since we got back pretty late..but dinner was good! I haven't had a traditional chinese dinner like that since chinese new year I think..haha but guess the main thing was the wedding..which turned out to be pretty nice..although I don't know janet and merril that well, I did feel quite happy for them:)

At the last minute I decided to wear my bridesmaid dress to the dinner..cos it was the only formal-ish piece of clothing I currently have..hah and sigh it was abit of a tight fit so I think I've put on some weight since last year..haha gloria typically brought up the whole topic of "who among the 4 of us would get married first"..haha we were unanimous in answer but I think ollie was in denial..guess we're nearing the stage where people of our own generation are due to tie the knot soon..sigh. think it'll be scary when people of our own age start getting married though. haha then there was the traditional yum sing..which brought back memories from my sister's wedding:) its cheesy but potentially fun if you've got a rowdy-enough audience:)

and I can't believe how blur I was.I ended up with 5 glasses of 7-up in front of me cos I kept making the stupid mistake of pouring 7-up into my cup cos I thought it was water! Its not my fault they look exactly alike in the pitchers..oh and the 2-tiered wedding cake was yummy!think its the first wedding I've been to where we actually get to eat a real wedding cake and they serve it there for dessert:) haha but we were all so so stuffed after the 12-course meal..

We took nice pictures! which I shall steal from LM later:) Sigh. I guess weddings are just naturally happy occasions..but the wedding's only really the beginning of a whole different life for 2 people:) wonder if I'll ever be ready to take up that challenge..haha ollie thinks I'll be the first to get married out of the 4 of us..haha but I think she only said that to worm out of our predictions of her being the first:)

ok I really should go do some work now..

~me~ at 9:40 PM

Friday, June 09, 2006

I don't understand how time can fly by so fast when we're shopping!haha it was only 3pm when we left uni..then before we realised it, it was 9pm and the shops were closing..don't think we meaned to stay out that late either..but after we attained our primary objective of getting janet's & merrill's wedding gift, the calling of the great sydney sale was too tempting to ignore..

The rain's still coming down in buckets, though it did let down considerably for awhile when we were out today:) I've actually opened my window a crack to let in the noise of the rain..although my room's abit chillier now..I like the sound of the rain:) sigh I need a new umbrella.

And I'm currently in an anime phase..thanks to the generous people around me, I've got an endless supply of naruto..and I just watched princess mononoke:) I remember playing the song last time in band and I feel so sad now watching it! sigh. Life in the anime world may seem far-fetched at times..but I guess it just allows us to stretch our imagination abit:) And I think I could use a trip away from the real world at times. Cos in the real world there are some things we just have no control over..and some things we can just never understand.

~me~ at 1:54 AM

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Just checked my mail and I got a nice surprise:) thanks so much debs for the photos! that was really so thoughtful and sweet..haha so although I'm not back home with you guys at least I can visualise in my head what happened:)

Its been a really really rainy few days. I woke up in the middle of the night yesterday and felt somehow soothed by the sound of the rain against my windows:) It's alot softer here since back home I'm used to the rain on my roof..but I guess it was just soothing all the same cos it somehow reminded me of my younger days back home:) And it suddenly occured to me last night..I miss my bolster :(

But I wish it would stop raining in the day! It's annoying when I have to get to school and the rain's too much of a drizzle to make me take out my umbrella (which is now broken & sorta skewed to one side thanks to the wind), but at the same time abit too heavy to walk unsheltered in..and yesterday the traffic intersection just outside my place was practically flooding :P I attempted to jump over this HUGE puddle but missed by quite alot. Ended up with my shoes and trousers sopping wet. Haha oh well on recollection think it really was too huge for me to have tried to jump over it in the first place. Felt somehow comforted by the fact that my housemates ended up in the same predicament. haha glad to know I'm not the only victim of this depressing yet simultaneously sometimes soothing weather:)

~me~ at 10:48 PM

Saturday, June 03, 2006

Is it really possible to be so certain of what you want in life? I always wonder how some people just seem to know. Then again maybe they really aren't that sure themselves..they just like to give the impression they do. But does it really matter in the end if they are happy by their own standards? I guess not..everyone defines happiness in different degrees..and some people are just harder to please. Like me..what's it gonna take?

Louisa donated the entire first season of prison break to me..and I can understand now why people are so hooked on it..the guy's a genius! haha well that's not the exact reason why I think the show's good..but no matter, watch it people! it's good!:) Still..I wonder how long the show can remain good if they're stuck in jail the whole time..it won't exactly be 'prison break' anymore if they do finally break out in the end..it's kinda like lost..the show would kinda hafta end if they finally do get off the island..so we all kinda know that they don't get found in the end..but I guess like most things, it's the process that counts..

Haha and cindy you are an IDIOT. I still can't believe I fell for that:) And I can't believe how unbelievably blur I can be at times..haha but that was super funny:)

~me~ at 9:37 PM

Thursday, June 01, 2006

on the way home today I saw this huge flock of birds circling above a neighbouring house. They just kept making laps around an invisible track in the sky surrounding the roof of the house..haha stupid birds. But they kinda reminded me of the weird seagulls at coogee..they would just circle round and round just above the sand at the beach..and then stand in a huge pack across the sand in the evening light facing the sea..kinda like in the movie city of angels..where the angels would gather at the beach at sunrise and sunsets:) Haha ok kinda random but long walks tend to make my mind wander..

Feeling abit tired now cos I didn't sleep too well last night..due to a combination of weird dreams and too much caffeine..and it was a draggy long school day..so I'm currently in no mood to do anything productive..plus my stomach feels funny now. But dinner wasn't too bad considering our rough effort at a culinary meal tonight..italian risotto with asparagus and chicken! Ha we finally put ollie's cookbook to some sort of use. Think you would have liked it jeh:)

Sigh.

~me~ at 10:19 PM

my search for verve

Sunday, June 25, 2006 I've been having weird dreams lately, plus I realise that my sleeping patterns are promptly timed; I seem to wake up at regular 3-hour intervals through the night..like if I sleep at 1145, I wake up at 245am on the dot. So I go back into a fitful sleep, and wake up later again at exactly 545! and its not been just for one night..its been happening many nights for awhile now..gloria says we sleep in 3-hour sleeping cycles..I didn't really believe her at first but now I'm starting to wonder..Or perhaps its psychological.. I received a nice surprise mail for me the other day:) thank you!:) somehow the old-fashioned way of receiving mail is so much more heartwarming:) not that I don't appreciate the convenience of emails and msn..but sometimes the old ways are the best..its just like photos..sure digital cameras are great for taking random photographs and sharing with people, but then I always prefer to look at and think of memories in physical form rather than on the screen of my computer.. and to the people around me..if you're reading this...I don't know what else to say except..don't get too stressed!less than a week left:) ~me~ at 9:51 AM Thursday, June 22, 2006 Super super sleepy now..ahhh help :P Sigh I'm never very productive after scenario group sessions..Amanda is really too nice to our class! she's bought us adequate supplies of sweets for the last couple of weeks..guess its to encourage us to participate and at least stay awake in class..haha but I think class is only kinda more distracting now, with the crinkling of wrappers as we pass the bags to one another..but they do keep us awake I guess:) and chocolate seems to taste alot better when you're struggling to stay awake in class..hope she'll still take us next semester.. I was discussing something with a friend today..when a person's in the middle of a panic attack for exams, does it actually help to tell them "don't worry, you'll do fine"? sometimes I guess you're just telling the person what he or she needs to hear at that time..and other times maybe you're just going with your better judgement based on what you know of the person. What's my point? haha not too sure myself..sigh sometimes words can just be a play on the mind, and you're better off not facing the truth. Often we tell others what we think they wanna hear, but when you repeat those words back to yourself, they somehow have a completely different meaning to you. Sometimes its so much easier to help another person with his/her dilemma, than to face up to your own problems. ~me~ at 9:47 PM Monday, June 19, 2006 Ack I've got a headache now..probably from trying to get through karen gibson's notes..I think she's too smart to be lecturing us..as in her level of thinking is hard for us to follow :P Sigh was just talking to cindy online..she's leaving tmr for her exchange in US..and I feel kinda sad although it shouldn't really make much of a difference..I mean, whether or not she's in singapore or US, we're still just in seperate places right? maybe I'm just sad that I won't be able to meet with her this break..haha she was asking me for advice on how much clothes to bring..and I think I probably gave her the idea to pack light..so now knowing her she'll probably be wearing the same clothes in all her photos..ya but cindy..even though I make you want to push me off a cliff..haha I'll miss you! and we'll have lots to catch up on end of the year:) hmm maybe location does matter. At least in singapore I can picture my friends and family doing about the same things at the same time..eating just abit later than me..sleeping just abit later than me..haha but for friends in a completely different time zone, they just feel so much further away..not just in a physical sense... sigh back to karen gibson notes. qi: ack yes EXAMS. but the idea of home is motivating:) haha and lucas looked super cute that day! xinli: haha yes I'll miss that woman too...but I'll be back real soon:) and we have lots to catch up on! nicole: heh yay can't wait:) I haven't seen you in AGES. ruth: haha I can imagine..your hair was already super long the last time I saw you! ~me~ at 9:29 PM Saturday, June 17, 2006 Feeling rather restless..but its felt like a really long day so far cos I've seem to have done alot..though mostly unproductive stuff..hah our fridge is now restocked with food, I sort of organised my notes, I talked to my sister, I went to the postoffice, I had a slow leisurely lunch:) haha I think somehow I'm just finding excuses to not sit down and get to official work.. 12 more days to home!haha not that I'm purposely counting down..in fact I usually don't count down cos it just makes the days seem longer. haha but ollie's counting down with her msn nick so I'm sort of forced to notice..the past 4 months suddenly seems to have blew past me:) and I'm just getting more edgey and anticipatory at the idea of seeing everyone again:) but before that, exams! :P and I suddenly realise that my hair's gotten super long! don't think I've grown out my hair this long since I was a little girl:) haha LM and ollie suggested I get a perm. Louisa asked me to go frizzy. And mythili suggested I shave my head. haha but knowing me..I don't think I'll do anything quite that drastic as mythili did:) sigh sigh. ok ok studytime. ~me~ at 2:02 PM Wednesday, June 14, 2006 Sigh I'm seriously wishing the next couple of weeks will just fly by! but I shouldn't complain..I can finally rid my hands of the project this friday..then it'll be 2 weeks to final exam then home!:):) And I would just like to say..that I am simply in awe of my mom:) haha although she's unofficially retired now, she refuses to allow herself to sink to couch potato status and is determined to keep her life as active as possible:) involving herself in the choir, multiple trips to shanghai, lunches with friends (at least 4 out of 5 weekdays!), mahjong (of course), dancing lessons (although I'm really having trouble picturing her doing salsa) and even a small little side buisness helping my dad sell wine..plus she'll be starting an introductory study course on traditional chinese medicine in a month's time.. I think my mom must have been quite the social butterfly in her younger years..haha maybe she's now trying to make up for the last 40yrs of inactiveness when she was working..haha and I've always thought my mom should expand on her singing talents..although we do complain whenever she sings..I honestly think she's got a pretty strong voice:) I wonder what I'll think of my life now when I'm old and graying and retired..will I laugh? or cry? probably both.. ~me~ at 10:48 PM Sunday, June 11, 2006 A cold windy day...the weather's not helping me to stay awake..I didn't sleep much last night since we got back pretty late..but dinner was good! I haven't had a traditional chinese dinner like that since chinese new year I think..haha but guess the main thing was the wedding..which turned out to be pretty nice..although I don't know janet and merril that well, I did feel quite happy for them:) At the last minute I decided to wear my bridesmaid dress to the dinner..cos it was the only formal-ish piece of clothing I currently have..hah and sigh it was abit of a tight fit so I think I've put on some weight since last year..haha gloria typically brought up the whole topic of "who among the 4 of us would get married first"..haha we were unanimous in answer but I think ollie was in denial..guess we're nearing the stage where people of our own generation are due to tie the knot soon..sigh. think it'll be scary when people of our own age start getting married though. haha then there was the traditional yum sing..which brought back memories from my sister's wedding:) its cheesy but potentially fun if you've got a rowdy-enough audience:) and I can't believe how blur I was.I ended up with 5 glasses of 7-up in front of me cos I kept making the stupid mistake of pouring 7-up into my cup cos I thought it was water! Its not my fault they look exactly alike in the pitchers..oh and the 2-tiered wedding cake was yummy!think its the first wedding I've been to where we actually get to eat a real wedding cake and they serve it there for dessert:) haha but we were all so so stuffed after the 12-course meal.. We took nice pictures! which I shall steal from LM later:) Sigh. I guess weddings are just naturally happy occasions..but the wedding's only really the beginning of a whole different life for 2 people:) wonder if I'll ever be ready to take up that challenge..haha ollie thinks I'll be the first to get married out of the 4 of us..haha but I think she only said that to worm out of our predictions of her being the first:) ok I really should go do some work now.. ~me~ at 9:40 PM Friday, June 09, 2006 I don't understand how time can fly by so fast when we're shopping!haha it was only 3pm when we left uni..then before we realised it, it was 9pm and the shops were closing..don't think we meaned to stay out that late either..but after we attained our primary objective of getting janet's & merrill's wedding gift, the calling of the great sydney sale was too tempting to ignore.. The rain's still coming down in buckets, though it did let down considerably for awhile when we were out today:) I've actually opened my window a crack to let in the noise of the rain..although my room's abit chillier now..I like the sound of the rain:) sigh I need a new umbrella. And I'm currently in an anime phase..thanks to the generous people around me, I've got an endless supply of naruto..and I just watched princess mononoke:) I remember playing the song last time in band and I feel so sad now watching it! sigh. Life in the anime world may seem far-fetched at times..but I guess it just allows us to stretch our imagination abit:) And I think I could use a trip away from the real world at times. Cos in the real world there are some things we just have no control over..and some things we can just never understand. ~me~ at 1:54 AM Tuesday, June 06, 2006 Just checked my mail and I got a nice surprise:) thanks so much debs for the photos! that was really so thoughtful and sweet..haha so although I'm not back home with you guys at least I can visualise in my head what happened:) Its been a really really rainy few days. I woke up in the middle of the night yesterday and felt somehow soothed by the sound of the rain against my windows:) It's alot softer here since back home I'm used to the rain on my roof..but I guess it was just soothing all the same cos it somehow reminded me of my younger days back home:) And it suddenly occured to me last night..I miss my bolster :( But I wish it would stop raining in the day! It's annoying when I have to get to school and the rain's too much of a drizzle to make me take out my umbrella (which is now broken & sorta skewed to one side thanks to the wind), but at the same time abit too heavy to walk unsheltered in..and yesterday the traffic intersection just outside my place was practically flooding :P I attempted to jump over this HUGE puddle but missed by quite alot. Ended up with my shoes and trousers sopping wet. Haha oh well on recollection think it really was too huge for me to have tried to jump over it in the first place. Felt somehow comforted by the fact that my housemates ended up in the same predicament. haha glad to know I'm not the only victim of this depressing yet simultaneously sometimes soothing weather:) ~me~ at 10:48 PM Saturday, June 03, 2006 Is it really possible to be so certain of what you want in life? I always wonder how some people just seem to know. Then again maybe they really aren't that sure themselves..they just like to give the impression they do. But does it really matter in the end if they are happy by their own standards? I guess not..everyone defines happiness in different degrees..and some people are just harder to please. Like me..what's it gonna take? Louisa donated the entire first season of prison break to me..and I can understand now why people are so hooked on it..the guy's a genius! haha well that's not the exact reason why I think the show's good..but no matter, watch it people! it's good!:) Still..I wonder how long the show can remain good if they're stuck in jail the whole time..it won't exactly be 'prison break' anymore if they do finally break out in the end..it's kinda like lost..the show would kinda hafta end if they finally do get off the island..so we all kinda know that they don't get found in the end..but I guess like most things, it's the process that counts.. Haha and cindy you are an IDIOT. I still can't believe I fell for that:) And I can't believe how unbelievably blur I can be at times..haha but that was super funny:) ~me~ at 9:37 PM Thursday, June 01, 2006 on the way home today I saw this huge flock of birds circling above a neighbouring house. They just kept making laps around an invisible track in the sky surrounding the roof of the house..haha stupid birds. But they kinda reminded me of the weird seagulls at coogee..they would just circle round and round just above the sand at the beach..and then stand in a huge pack across the sand in the evening light facing the sea..kinda like in the movie city of angels..where the angels would gather at the beach at sunrise and sunsets:) Haha ok kinda random but long walks tend to make my mind wander.. Feeling abit tired now cos I didn't sleep too well last night..due to a combination of weird dreams and too much caffeine..and it was a draggy long school day..so I'm currently in no mood to do anything productive..plus my stomach feels funny now. But dinner wasn't too bad considering our rough effort at a culinary meal tonight..italian risotto with asparagus and chicken! Ha we finally put ollie's cookbook to some sort of use. Think you would have liked it jeh:) Sigh. ~me~ at 10:19 PM
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