germy.

Monday, April 03, 2006

In the midst of assignments, projects, anatomy and pharmacology, I find my thoughts wandering even more than normal now..and I can't seem to be able to put all my thoughts down in words.

Its abit hard to keep my eyes open now..probably a result of me getting about 4 hours of sleep last night!hah I woke up in the middle of the night and realised I was COLD. But I guess its good in that I finally got around to taking my heater out of its box..its been sitting in the living room since I bought it a couple of weeks ago..can start putting it to good use:)

Quick recap of my weekend..
Friday night bible study was at slott's place..steamboat dinner:) there was a nice homey air to the night..it was also a surprise bday celeb for david..who really was surprised I think:) me and ollie enjoyed the birthday cake immensely..drowning our poppyseed cake in ice cream:) and then we had a recollection of the last 3 weeks of biblestudy..I think these studies really have been good for me..at the same time I'm realising things about myself that I'm not sure are good or bad. Sometimes knowing more just makes you more confused..but I guess its also the whole thinking process that teaches you more about yourself.

Not just refering to the bible..but life in general. Sometimes I wonder if things are better left unsaid, or if I would rather not know things..is ignorance really bliss? well perhaps..but then I'd feel as if I were living a very superficial life. So many things in life feel superficial and alien to me right now..sometimes I feel as if the me talking to my classmates isn't really me..and that I'm just putting up a front. How do people do it? Some people seem perfectly happy doing it. Or maybe to them it isn't really a front.

dinner tonight was yummy:) reminded me somewhat of dinner back home:)

I miss you :(

~me~ at 11:14 PM

my search for verve

Monday, April 03, 2006 In the midst of assignments, projects, anatomy and pharmacology, I find my thoughts wandering even more than normal now..and I can't seem to be able to put all my thoughts down in words. Its abit hard to keep my eyes open now..probably a result of me getting about 4 hours of sleep last night!hah I woke up in the middle of the night and realised I was COLD. But I guess its good in that I finally got around to taking my heater out of its box..its been sitting in the living room since I bought it a couple of weeks ago..can start putting it to good use:) Quick recap of my weekend.. Friday night bible study was at slott's place..steamboat dinner:) there was a nice homey air to the night..it was also a surprise bday celeb for david..who really was surprised I think:) me and ollie enjoyed the birthday cake immensely..drowning our poppyseed cake in ice cream:) and then we had a recollection of the last 3 weeks of biblestudy..I think these studies really have been good for me..at the same time I'm realising things about myself that I'm not sure are good or bad. Sometimes knowing more just makes you more confused..but I guess its also the whole thinking process that teaches you more about yourself. Not just refering to the bible..but life in general. Sometimes I wonder if things are better left unsaid, or if I would rather not know things..is ignorance really bliss? well perhaps..but then I'd feel as if I were living a very superficial life. So many things in life feel superficial and alien to me right now..sometimes I feel as if the me talking to my classmates isn't really me..and that I'm just putting up a front. How do people do it? Some people seem perfectly happy doing it. Or maybe to them it isn't really a front. dinner tonight was yummy:) reminded me somewhat of dinner back home:) I miss you :( ~me~ at 11:14 PM
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