germy.

Saturday, December 31, 2005

Things often don't turn out the way we expect them to. That's why I don't like making expectations, then I won't have to set myself up for disappointments.

Went to ollie's last night for a bbq..so much food!ollie's so generous:) her place is really nice:) and her dogs are pretty cute!in a naughty sort of way..hanging out with ollie, LM, glowie & Jon again reminded me of life back in sydney..I'm already kind of sad at the thought of having to return to sydney in february..I know it's still a long while away but I know the time will just fly by. It's not that I'm dreading life back in sydney; on the contrary I look forward to moving in with glowie and LM:)but I guess there's just no place like home.

Anyway, it's now new year's eve and I've a busy day ahead..resolutions for the new year? I don't usually like to set specific targets for myself. Reflections? Think I've reflected enough for the year. People always tell me I think too much..and sometimes that's not a good thing..but this particular year has given me much to chew on..it's truly been an unforgettable year:) & a good one:) Thank you all--I've enjoyed this last year:) Happy 2006 people:)

~me~ at 1:02 PM

Friday, December 30, 2005

Feeling tired but good now:) Sentosa was a blast:)

Thank you Weilian, Qixiang, Yinshuo, JJ, Yongxiang, JB, Amos, Wanjun, Weiling, Xinhui & Shihao:) I'd forgotten how much fun it was to just hang out by the beach playing volleyball and frisbee all day..Sentosa was super crowded though..with families & students & tourists plus there were only 2 volleyball courts available because of the huge silly tent for new year's celebrations..but we still managed to have fun without the court:)

It was valuable time catching up with everyone's lives as well..heh there've been a few surprising but interesting developments in the class in the last year..and it just felt good talking to everyone again:) was pretty excited for weilian & his summer program in Virginia..and wanjun & weiling were bombarding me with questions on sydney..one of my favourite things about the class is that everybody makes an effort to include everyone. And everyone keeps an eye out for one another:) Haha and I always have a hilarious time with them:)

~me~ at 3:24 AM

Thursday, December 29, 2005

Pretty tired now and I have to wake up early tomorrow for sentosa..but I felt like blogging about the past couple of days:)

Been catching up with a lot of people close to heart these 2 days..First, it was really nice seeing xinli again today:) haha and the christmas cookies she baked were nice too!yeah but the best part was just sitting down and talking to her for a long long while..feels like forever since the last time I saw her but I still feel as comfortable as ever chatting with her:) And I always feel like I can just truly be myself around her:) No pretenses:) Before I knew it 3 hours had gone by!We wanted to take some pictures at the taka christmas tree but it's unfortunately gone now..so we settled for the christmas lights/decorations outside a jewellery shop instead:)

Anyway it was really nice seeing her today again:) haha and I recall in RGS people used to say we looked alike. Haha thats probably not true now cos I think she looks really pretty now:) er not that I didn't think that before..PRETTIER now:) Left xinli at about 6 plus to meet pips for dinner..

Had dinner with pips at cafe cartel..think he's lost even more weight since the last time I saw him!and I only realised today that he's gonna be ORDing in april..like 4 months from now!wow. Feels like just yesterday that the guys in my JC year entered NS..anyway I had a rather hilarious time with pips..from his crab story to his cheese story:) Let me blog about his crab story: He was up at 4am on xmas day playing games on his computer when he heard a knocking sound from the direction of his door..so he turns to see this gray little thing scuttle into his room through the dark..he puts on his glasses and switches on the lights to see a crab scuttling across his bedroom floor behind his bed..so he grabs one of those clothes-hanging-pointy-things and prods at it, making a ton of noise and waking up his entire family..so there's the entire family, up at a ridiculous hour on xmas morning trying to catch a runaway crab trapped behind his bed:) They barbequed the crab the next day for xmas lunch.

Haha hope you didn't mind me sharing that story pips:) Just feeling kind of hyper now and I'm trying to do something with my time while i wait for my hair to dry so I can go to bed:) Anyway dinner ended up dragging till about 10..so that's near 6hours of non-stop talking for me today!ah..no wonder I'm feeling so thirsty now..

Yep it was pretty good day:) And also....welcome home chengyee!:) you've got a cute accent:) (no matter how disgusting you might think it to be)

Met cheng for a few hours on tuesday at paragon..it was interesting hearing about her life in LA for the last half a year:) She sounds happier compared to the last time I talked to her..so that's really good:) Take care cheng:) Heh and yep the next time you return, you had better have learnt how to drive and have your own car:)

Still feeling a bit sick-ish but think I slept most of it off last night..as best as I could anyway..not sure why but I've been having trouble sleeping all this week..Had another bad dream last night. And it seemed so real this time..I woke up and had to ask myself if the events in the dream had truly taken place in real life.

Nearly any dream you have that refers to death, dying or attending a funeral, or the like, pertain to change. Most all the time this change is very dramatic and major. It can be change in your life attitude or emotional balance. These types of dreams can also symbolize confronting fear, usually fear of death or change. Most death dreams are about major change and not about literal death though, so don't panic if you have one. Just patiently go through the analysis process, and make sense of it.

Bah. They're probably just results of my overactive imagination combined with the fever. Just weird cos I hardly recall dreams & in the last 2 weeks I've had more bad dreams than I can ever remember having.

~me~ at 2:01 AM

Monday, December 26, 2005

Tis the season to be jolly...

Lucas in his new crib:)

Me & mom!My sister says we're starting to look more alike..oh no. :)

Little Lucas with his lovely mother & his monkey of a father:)

Xmas presents 2005:)

Lucas in his christmas hat:)

Lucas with what me and my sisters dubbed his 'old man expression.'

Still in a rather christmas-sy mood..in fact more so than before christmas:) oh well it's only the second day of xmas..10 more to go!Felt a bit feverish in the afternoon but feeling a little better now..hope I feel well enough to meet cheng & for the RCIA party tmr..Sigh. I hate being sick.

This xmas I spent with my parents, sisters, brother-in-law & a recent new addition to the family:)

Last xmas I spent in good company with cindy, xinli & cindy's homemade oreo cheesecake.

The xmas before last I remember a nice quiet xmas with Lionel, my family and a seafood barbecue.

Xmas 2002 I recall the twins' xmas party : Creamy pasta, baked potatoes, sheperd's pie & a chocolatety-good dessert:) Silly old-fashioned xmas fun with the twins, Lionel, gerald, weibin, gary and gang:)

Ah what would we do without memories?:)

Headache now. Gonna pop a panadol.

~me~ at 10:04 PM

Sunday, December 25, 2005

Merry christmas everyone:)

Christmas day ended up being a lot nicer than I thought it would:) Christmas eve was kinda anticlimatic..we usually go for midnight mass on christmas eve but we went for the sunset mass this year instead cos of Lucas..The children's christmas pageant was pretty cute:)

I'm sitting on my floor now admiring the stash of presents from this year displayed around me..Got lotsa nice presents this year:) Some were pleasant surprises to me..surprise because of the amount of sentimental effort some people put into gifts:) Not that I didn't think people would put that much thought into gifts..just that I'm really really touched:) Thank you:)

Haha of course christmas isn't all about gifts..family time was nice today:) and I think I ate a bit too much..hmm and the next week brings a lot of good food as well..so far: lunch/dinners with lynn, pips, cheng, RCIA xmas party, and then new year celebrations! haha turkey at lunch was good. My mom made this comment about not liking turkey when she saw me take seconds. She says she doesn't like to eat turkey because they look stupid. Huh. Well, (in chris's words) if everyone thought that way the dodo wouldn't be extinct. So I suppose she thinks chickens, fish, pigs and cows look smart? My mom's ridiculous at times:) But I wouldn't have her any other way:)

Hmm and I suddenly recall a bad dream last night. Let's just say I woke up feeling thankful that things in real life aren't as they were in the dream. I always believe that dreams are reflective of real life though..Thank you God for blessing my mother with good health. That scene last week was scary for awhile but I'm glad everything turned out ok:)

~me~ at 10:33 PM

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Dedicated to all my loved ones...

Thank you dear God for this wonderful year
Loved ones, cherished moments and a listening ear

The wedding was a blast
Time seems to have passed so fast
That was way back in february
Right now we're almost back to January

I felt tears in my eyes
As I said my goodbyes
Absence really does make the heart ponder
Living in sydney has made my heart fonder

I've visited Coogee, Bondi & Maroubra
Enjoyed pancakes & seafood platters
Wines & chocolates at Hunter's valley
Thank you Jon, Mingde, Daphne & Gary

Mahjong nights at gloria's
Dinners at Lin min & olivia's
Ice cream on a cold winter night
The night sky at coogee was a lovely sight

Dubbo, the aquarium & the botanic garden
Creston suppers in the den
Childish pranks with the Creston gang
I'll miss you all, especially mythili, louisa & ling

One year's now passed
I can't believe just how fast
Through it all I thank you for family & friends
For lasting relationships till all ends
This christmas I pray for joy
For all my loved ones including a certain baby boy

To Amelia, Michelle & dear Ruth
Thanks for the laughter, love & for constantly reminding me of my youth
To the RGSSB girls & a certain special pair of twins
We've been through it all, losses & wins
Thanks for being a part of my life
Thoughts of you guys help me through times of strife
To Xinli & Cindy
Thanks for keeping in touch & for always being there for me
To Pips
Thanks for listening to my rants & for the japanese food tips
To Lionel
Thanks for the support & for encouraging
For believing in me & for understanding
To cn5a
Thanks for making the effort to keep me included
Ever since I left the class last year
I won't forget our fun times together
To Gloria, Olivia & Lin Min
Thanks for being as close as kin
Sydney wouldn't be the same without you
You raised my spirits when I felt blue
To the gang at creston
Thanks a ton
For the laughs, the teasing
The confidence, the help & the understanding
To Jon
Thanks for the laughs, care & concern
You taught me to stay strong, you taught me how to learn
To mom and dad
I can't express to you how grateful I am
For the support & for enabling me to pursue my dream in a foreign land
To Jeh & Chris
I can't describe in words how much I miss
Just being around you
Thanks for the guidance & encouragement; I love you two.
To Qi
Thanks for the companionship
I especially enjoyed the japan trip
Know I'm here for you; I love you, I do.

Let 2006 be an enriching year for us all
I pray we'll be happy & that we'll all have a ball
Thank you once more for everything
Happy Christmas everyone, let's make merry & sing:)

To everyone else I didn't mention, thank you for being a part of my life:)

Yay most of my christmas shopping/preparations are done:) Wrote the poem in an attempt to get into the christmas spirit:) It kinda worked:)

King Kong was fantastic:) Peter Jackson did a really good job..(For people who don't want to spoil the movie for themselves, don't read this paragraph) He brought the relationship btwn King Kong and Anne pretty well:) I didn't expect the first half of the movie to be so creepy though..I was cowering with my hands over my eyes for most of the creepy-crawly parts..Was just waiting for the King-Kong-at- the-top-of-empire-state-building moment..I remember I had this toy when I was younger--a swivel pencil with King Kong on the top and an aeroplane that would go round and round and round his head. Haha so I was kind of anticipating that scene. Felt kinda sad after the movie though.

My sister was asking me if helping to look after Lucas has changed my mind about having children of my own in the future..hmm well the past month has taught me a lot more about what it means to be a mother and a parent. I've always been afraid of commitment. Or responsibility. I guess fear sometimes is a good thing; It's through overcoming fear that we learn more about ourselves and what we want in life..But learning more about being a mother will never ever prepare me for actual motherhood. Its just like medical school; I won't ever fully be prepared to be a doctor until I graduate & start practising. Or a relationship; we don't know how a relationship will work out unless we're actually in the relationship. I guess God made things this way..cos He wants us to experience life.

~me~ at 9:35 PM

Feeling kinda tired now..its been a busy past couple of days..but busy in a good way:)

Today started of with a trip to gleneagles for Lucas's visit to the paediatrician's:) Think he's getting cuter by the day..my sister and I have come to the conclusion that he feels more secure in the over-the-shoulder-hold (otherwise known in books as the 'kangaroo hold')..he looks so cute peering over my sister's shoulder!Hmm think he probably feels more secure in this position..and he also gets to see more of the world around him this way..if we hold him in our laps he only gets a view of the ceiling..He's starting to notice more of his surroundings; his eyes can follow you around and he's trying to smile more:)

After that I met ruth, michelle and amelia for lunch..at crystal jade la mian!heh I recall meeting them there for lunch as well in july when I returned..can't believe it's been half a year since..It felt so good talking to them again. Sometimes I like to just sit back and listen to the conversation around me..with amelia and michelle..it's especially entertaining:) and thank you ruth; for always being there for me, and for being a wonderful friend to me:) I love you guys!

Anyway, lunch was fantastic, and we spent some time walking and shopping afterward..took some silly photos at the lovely christmas displays outside taka:) can't believe how time flies when I'm with them..it was evening before we knew it and I left to go for RCIA..Tonight's class was on the eucharist; it's significance and purpose. I do get distracted at times during mass..and knowing more about the individual prayers and rites help to keep my attention. Lionel raised some pretty good points..he links the topics raised in class to instances in daily life. That really helps to put things into perspective:)

And I received a surprise letter from australia today..from creston!selena and rosa sent me a xmas card:) So thoughtful of them:) Thanks and merry christmas to you guys as well:) Somehow I have yet to experience the christmas-sy feeling/spirit this year. Not sure why..christmas in 5 days!Maybe cos I don't usually leave preparations for my christmas presents till this last minute. And maybe cos there are other things on my mind this year..but I have much to be thankful for this year:)

~me~ at 2:22 AM

Sunday, December 18, 2005

The glory of friendship is not the outstretched hand, nor the kindly smile nor the joy of companionship; it is the spiritual inspiration that comes to one when he discovers that someone else believes in him and is willing to trust him.

~me~ at 1:18 AM

Lucas:)

~me~ at 12:45 AM

bathtime!:)

~me~ at 12:42 AM

sleeeeeepy....

~me~ at 12:41 AM

Friday, December 16, 2005

Poor alf..think he was in pain during his last few moments..my sister was carrying Lucas when she noticed alf kind of sprawled in a corner of the cage..I tried to feed him but he couldn't even lift his head up to take the piece of capsicum I held out to him :P so I took him out of the cage..and then I just felt his body go limp :( Sighs. He's had a long, good life. Rest in peace alf.

Was kind of lost in thought after that..was just holding Lucas in my arms as my sister cleaned up the guinea pig cage. I know..he wasn't even really my pet but I still felt sad..never really had a pet die in my arms so suddenly like that before..guess it was just kind of unexpected. Buster: don't go away so abruptly ok?

Today’s been pretty cinderella-ish for me..cleaned the house then cooked lunch for my mom and sisters..then looked after Lucas while my sister took a break..heh but I rewarded myself with krispy kremes!Raymond brought back SEVENTY krispy kremes from korea..Bravo. thought it was an australian thing but I guess not. But personally I think krispy kremes in australia taste better. Somehow donuts don’t taste as good when the weather’s hot and sweltering. Hmm think I'm probably the only one at home eating them.. :)

My mom was packing and going through her photo collection earlier...She was glancing at our baby photos and suddenly exclaimed that my elder sister looked exactly like Lucas when she was a baby:)haha the old photos really did look like Lucas..We had flipped through half the album when we realised that the front of the album was actually labelled as MINE. Haha so Lucas looks like me:) Lucky kid:) Looking at Lucas now I think I was pretty cute as a kid:) heh. Its uncanny though. Hmph and my own mother can't even recognise my baby pictures.

My mom also showed us photos of Jude..and also photos taken at Jude's funeral. It was pretty sad..I've never seen my parents looking that upset before. Even from the old photos, I could sense their pain..but I guess anyone in their position would have been grieved.

Hmm I wonder...Do animals go to heaven? They don’t have souls..but they have spirits right? I do think that animals have individuality and character..Perhaps there’s a guinea pig heaven. And a dog heaven.

~me~ at 10:11 PM

Today started off early as we had to send lea to the airport..she was kinda nervous but excited about going home..guess I would be too..I can't even imagine how she must feel. Seeing her children once every 2 years..Turns out it was a good thing we made it earlier to the airport..her luggage was 20kg overweight!Whew. Had to help her unpack at the airport..She had packed tons of chocolates and sweets for her children..Guess chocolate's a luxury in phillipines.

Anyway, went to east coast park after that..it was a nice quiet morning for a bike ride:) Was thinking of the last time I went there..seems so long ago yet I remember that day so clearly in my head. Finally managed to get in some chiristmas shopping today as well..spent quite a bit but I guess that's what christmas is about:) haha and many thanks for helping me to lug around my stuff today..never did get the chance to properly thank you:)

Feeling particularly pensive tonight. Guess christmas and the end of the year bring with them the idea of trying to tie up the entire year.

This year, I've learnt...
Goodbyes always hurt
Pictures can never replace having been there
Memories good and bad bring tears
& words can never replace feelings

~me~ at 12:28 AM

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Sunday:Lucas's baptism:)
He probably didn't even understand what exactly was happening to him..but he was particularly guai that day:) He's begun gurgling more lately and is starting to have more expressions..sometimes I swear he smiles at me. Although by right babies his age aren't supposed to know how to smile yet:) I wish I could do more for my sister at times..but I know there's only so much I can do. Being a mom's not easy.

On monday my mom did laundry for the first time in her life. Goodness. Lea's going home on thursday so I guess that means more cooking and cleaning for me. Anyway my mother was simply amazed at the simplicity of technology today. Just put in your clothes, press a button and tada clothes washed. Haha well good for you mom. And today I had to make breakfast for her because she doesn't know how to make a sandwich. No wonder she's worried about me moving out next year..she's probably worried that I'm blessed with her inability to cook or clean:) Who knows..maybe I am.

Had a nice chat with my sister at lunch yesterday..well it was more like us taking turns having lunch while the other person looked after Lucas. I used to think babies sleep a lot..I guess they do but sometimes it doesn't seem that way with Lucas..Was trying to pat him to sleep yesterday but he just kept his wide innocent eyes trained on mine..finally got him to sleep by bouncing him up and down. Haha but my sister says she normally has to sing and rock him for a long long while until he falls asleep. only in the day though. He's pretty nice and quiet at night:) Wonder what babies think of. Lucas always seems to stare back at me with a thoughtful expression..and lately he's been mesmerised by the hanging toys in his crib. Guess he's just starting to see more of the world around him.

~me~ at 10:35 AM

Sometimes I feel too young for all of this. I wish I could just go back to being a kid at times..when I wouldn't have to deal with all of this. Sigh. Why am I complaining? I need to learn to be more thankful of the things in my life.. I just wish I didn't feel so lonely at times.

How could you even think that? I'm not angry at you but I just wish you could learn to see outside the box at times..no matter what you say or do.. I could never truly be angry at you. I couldn't even if I wanted to. I hope you know that. Anyway I'm not sure if you ever will read this..even if you do, you probably won't even realise this is about you. I hate it when you do this to us..to them. But I also know I would rather be here than to be half a continent away when this happens.

~me~ at 6:57 AM

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Lake Toya!with a pseudo Mt Fuji in the background:)

~me~ at 2:18 AM

Hell valley..

~me~ at 2:16 AM

ankle-deep snow:)cold.

~me~ at 2:14 AM

My mom:) in her silly red snow cap:)

~me~ at 2:13 AM

bento!

~me~ at 2:12 AM

Feeeling happy right now:)

Still got japan on my mind..My impression of japan is now vastly different from before I visited hokkaido..I think its pretty impressive the way the japanese go about doing things and I applaud their work ethic:) Everyone there is so nice and friendly and polite..Haha even the newscasters on tv bow before before starting on the news...the general atmosphere I experienced from walking through the streets of hokkaido gave me a peaceful, friendly, homey impression:) Osaka had a relatively 'big city' feel to it..but it was also interesting just taking in the general sights and sounds of the city..people there are not afraid to be different and they're pretty open to change..

Haha one thing that really amused us on the very first day of our tour was the public toilets; very stark contrast to china. All the toilets there are nice and clean..even the toilets at the wet market had sliding doors and potted plants:) Haha and most toilets there have a panel of buttons next to the toilet bowl; there's a button that plays music/flushing sounds..I'm not certain of its exact function but my mom suggested it was useful for covering up sounds of..erm well you guys hazard a guess. Then there are buttons that activate this spray jet in the toilet bowl that helps you wash your ass after you're done. So you can wash up after you're done while you're still sitting on the bowl. Kinky. Me and my sister were hesistant in trying that out though..

Anyway, enough about the toilets:) Heh like I mentioned in my earlier post..the things that stood out the most in my mind were the snow, people and food:) The snow was just amazing..it gave the air a magical, giddy touch:) Of course I think if I had to trudge through snow everyday to school/work I'd be telling a different story..but right now I think I'll just preserve the image I have of a snowy winter wonderland in my mind:)

And the FOOD. I don't even know where to begin. Salmon, cold crab, chocolate, ice cream, wasabe biscuits (it sounds disgusting but trust me these are GREAT), ramen..I could go on and on:) Ice cream in hokkaido generally comes in 5 flavours; Lavender, melon, green tea, cheese & potato. The potato was kinda weird but melon and green tea were yummy:) And there's nothing better on a cold snowy day than a nice hot soupy bowl of ramen:) And pips: you'll be glad to know I was relatively more adventurous in trying the different kinds of food:)

Yawn. Sorry feels like there's a lot more to say but I'm kinda sleeeepy now. Will blog more soon:) night people:)

~me~ at 1:16 AM

Saturday, December 10, 2005

Returned last night:) don't have the time to blog in detail about japan now but I will eventually:)

Japan was really great:) Don't know how else to put it. Great food, sights, and the snow was just amazing!It was freezing cold but somehow when the snow falls you just forget how cold it is..the gentle falling of snow is mesmerising:) The whitening of the surrounding landscapes..little white bits accumulating in my sister's hair..the sounds of my mom and sister laughing:)

The japanese are pretty creative in that they're able to make beautiful things out of the simplest things..Will return there someday:) hopefully. anyway church now:)

~me~ at 7:30 PM

Saturday, December 03, 2005

happy belated birthday cass!:)

~me~ at 1:19 AM

me and debs and our coriander-covered dory fish:)

~me~ at 1:18 AM

cassandra's HUGE passionfruit drink.

~me~ at 1:17 AM

mandy, cass, chee, shumei, debs, chicken little, karen & me:)

~me~ at 1:16 AM

It's been a great first week back:)

Met the band girls today for lunch/surprise birthday celebration for cass..guess it was quite a surprise considering her birthday was awhile back; when we started singing the birthday song in fish & co. cass's first reaction was, "who me?":) We spent some time before that trying to figure out a place for lunch..Ended up at PS cos the movie tickets for harry potter at lido were lousy. Embarrassed ourselves taking numerous photos in front of the huge chicken little figure at the PS box office:)It's felt as if I never left..yet little things here and there in orchard appear differently from the way I remember..anyway it was nice seeing everyone again:) and I was so full and sleepy after that HUGE piece of dory fish. Been eating a lot of good food this week..:) Heh met lionel for a japanese buffet at suntec on thursday..he hasn't changed much either:)still the same blur nice guy I know and good thing he hasn't lost any more weight.

I really thank God for all the people in my life. Seeing all my friends and family again everytime I return to singapore reminds me of that:) Heh not that my sydney friends don't..In a way I kind of miss sydney..my first year in sydney will always have a special place in my heart; It was a year of ups & downs..filled with smiles, tears and lessons learnt. Its really hard to believe the year's coming to an end already..this time last year I was preparing for my sister's wedding; now she's a mom. This time last year I was getting geared up to spend the next 6 years in tasmania; now I'm finished with year one at UNSW. This time last year I was so sad at the thought of leaving home; now I'm back home & looking forward to living on my own next year..yeah it'll be different having to cook and clean for myself, but it'll be good for me:) Haha cooked breakfast for my family this morning..It feels nice cooking for others but think if I'm on my own I probably won't bother going to too much trouble.. But anyway for now I'm just going to enjoy being home for the next 2 months:)

Went for a jog around dalvey then played badminton with qi earlier..then we brought buster for a looong walk..poor buster's been cooped up in the house ever since my sister gave birth..but he's been a good boy:)I'm pretty sure he understands what's going on:) Haha my elder sister says I've been uncharacteristically sporty since my return this time. Guess I'm just trying to keep up with what I started in sydney last semester..cos it'll be harder to start the habit again if I stop now..heh and the other night I was giving my mom a massage..she said that I felt stronger. Heh. Sigh but its probably just psychological. Either that or I'm really building muscle from carrying Lucas in my arms around the house:)

Lucas has been sleeping better the last couple of nights..(which means better sleep for all of us as well) but my mom says I still have huge panda eyes..my right arm kind of aches now from me carrying him during my attempt to pacify him last night..He was particularly restless but was relatively soothed by the lights on our christmas tree:)Haha my mom was saying that I was an easy baby to take care of; Cos I just slept all the time. Hmm maybe that's why I have trouble sleeping now..Maybe I slept too much as a baby:)

anyway, getting kind of geared up about the japan trip..wasn't particularly excited about going at first cos I was kind of looking forward to just coming home, enjoying being home and spending time with my family..but now its suddenly dawned on me that I'm going to JAPAN. wow:) wish my elder sister could join us though.. yes for those who don't know yet, I'm leaving for japan tomorrow!so I'll probably check back in another week's time:)have a great week everyone:)

~me~ at 12:17 AM