germy.

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Tired. But happy:)

I just spoke to my sister..the baby's due at ANY MOMENT. I guess it didn't really hit me until I spoke to her tonight. I can't even imagine how it must feel..going about doing everyday things knowing that at any moment your baby could be born..haha she kind of had a false alarm last night..was trying to imagine the scene at home..according to my sister, it went somehow like this:

my sis: Chris! My stomach feels funny. I think I'm having contractions. But they feel different...how how what if its the baby coming?
chris: hmm? remember what the gynae said..they have to be occuring at regular intervals.
my sis: *looks at clock and pauses for a long while* whew. ok sorry false alarm.
chris: yeah I know. my stomach feels funny too. Think it was something we ate for dinner. I need to shit.

Wish I were home.

Anyway, today's clinical was pretty interesting..but sad. The first patient we talked to was this sweet elderly lady who had oesophageal cancer. She only had 3-4 months to live. But she was so nice..allowing us to poke and prod at her. Sigh. And the next patient we saw was a Korean guy with pancreatic cancer. One month left and nothing the hospital can do. It was harder with the korean guy since he couldn't even understand what I was talking to him about..and it was the first time I saw a jaundiced patient with literally yellowed eyes and skin. The image of his yellowed eyes is still stuck in my head. Its so different reading/studying about all this stuff and actually seeing people with these conditions. I guess we never ever can be 100% ready for anything, until we actually do it. My sister won't ever be fully prepared for her labour. I won't ever be fully prepared to be a doctor. Same with relationships.

Yawn. Good night:) Happy birthday to ollie in advance:)

~me~ at 1:44 AM

my search for verve

Tuesday, November 08, 2005 Tired. But happy:) I just spoke to my sister..the baby's due at ANY MOMENT. I guess it didn't really hit me until I spoke to her tonight. I can't even imagine how it must feel..going about doing everyday things knowing that at any moment your baby could be born..haha she kind of had a false alarm last night..was trying to imagine the scene at home..according to my sister, it went somehow like this: my sis: Chris! My stomach feels funny. I think I'm having contractions. But they feel different...how how what if its the baby coming? chris: hmm? remember what the gynae said..they have to be occuring at regular intervals. my sis: looks at clock and pauses for a long while whew. ok sorry false alarm. chris: yeah I know. my stomach feels funny too. Think it was something we ate for dinner. I need to shit. Wish I were home. Anyway, today's clinical was pretty interesting..but sad. The first patient we talked to was this sweet elderly lady who had oesophageal cancer. She only had 3-4 months to live. But she was so nice..allowing us to poke and prod at her. Sigh. And the next patient we saw was a Korean guy with pancreatic cancer. One month left and nothing the hospital can do. It was harder with the korean guy since he couldn't even understand what I was talking to him about..and it was the first time I saw a jaundiced patient with literally yellowed eyes and skin. The image of his yellowed eyes is still stuck in my head. Its so different reading/studying about all this stuff and actually seeing people with these conditions. I guess we never ever can be 100% ready for anything, until we actually do it. My sister won't ever be fully prepared for her labour. I won't ever be fully prepared to be a doctor. Same with relationships. Yawn. Good night:) Happy birthday to ollie in advance:) ~me~ at 1:44 AM
design by may