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Thursday, November 04, 2004

Its thursday..almost 1 week after I received the news from tasmania..hmm I'm wondering where my time went to..lets see..I've been packing my room(but its still a mess), I've been reading more on tasmania, and I realise I spend a large portion of my time thinking...

I had lunch with my elder sister..if anything, this week has given me the chance to spend more time with my elder sister and my dog :) I really envy her..She's only 25, but she's getting married & has a steady job..She's one of the few people I know who's doing something she has a real passion for..In our world, its so hard to be able to do something we really want..Most people choose careers for practical reasons, or because they have no idea what they want in life..Isn't it weird how people spend half their lives losing their health to earn money, then spend the other half losing that money to restore their health?

But different pple feel happy with different things in life..My sister feels happy with her job, and she's happy with her fiance. I never really saw myself as a chem engineer..I'm not the kind of person who can work in a laboratory all day..I need to meet people, and I want to interact with people..I predicted myself teaching after completing my 4 years at NUS..but life took an unexpected turn of events..

A conversation with a friend last night made me wonder..why do I want to become a doctor?Yes I want to meet people..but I can meet and help people doing social work or other more easily attainable jobs..I hate to think of myself as wanting to study medicine for monetary reasons, or for the prestige :( but my sister said this, "Yes of course being a doctor will give you financial security, but thats not all it will give you..If you were in this just for money, you would have gone into buisness like mom and pa.." Many jobs come with financial security, but not many can make you feel like you're living a worthwhile life.. I enjoy social work, but at the same time,I also want to make the best use of my talents to make life better for others..hmm but sometimes I feel that I'm too emotional to be a doctor..and I've got to learn to be more decisive..haha being blur and indecisive are definitely not good traits for a doctor..

oops sorry I just realised how serious and lengthy my previous paragraphs sound..sorry to bore all of you with my weird thoughts..ok on a lighter note..I pretty much embarrassed myself yesterday evening when I took my dog out for a walk..I noticed some people smiling or giving me weird looks as I strolled past them..It was only when I got home that I realised why..a picture of the shirt I wore out to walk buster is at the top of this entry...

haha my mom always laughs at me everytime I wear it..I remember I told myself before that I would never wear it out in public..but I guess I was too preoccupied with my thoughts yesterday..

~me~ at 6:07 PM