germy.

Saturday, November 27, 2004

hello everybody!I'm leaving for US tonight!:)Haha I stayed up until about 4 last night..so hope I'll be snoring away on the plane later..

Meeting Lionel to go watch a movie now!probably polar express:)it'll get me geared up for Christmas!hmm it feels like I haven't watched a movie with him in ages..

ok have a great time celebrating end of exams everyone!I'll tell you all about my trip when I return on 12th december..ciao!:)

~me~ at 2:55 PM

Friday, November 26, 2004

cycling at East Coast!

~me~ at 4:49 PM

germ and crazy cindy!

~me~ at 4:46 PM

I'm supposed to be packing for my US trip right now..haha I'm not planning on sleeping at all tonight, so I'll be snoring away on the plane ride to US..thats what I'm hoping will happen anyway.

I met up with cindy and xinli yesterday..xinli was so happy cos she ended her final exams yesterday:) To the NUS pple who haven't ended exams yet, be happy cos the end is very very near!!:)We sat down at this cafe at bugis, where they had set lunches which were really worthwhile..$6.80 for clam chowder soup, a chicken/fish rice casserole, plus cookie crumble ice-cream for dessert!Haha xinli was so eager to start shopping..once we finished eating, she and cindy hopped up from their seats and walked out of the restuarant..I was still sitting at my seat and was like, "Hey have we paid the bill yet?" Hmph and people say I'm blur.

We just walked around bugis after that..it was an afternoon of shopping and childish behaviour. I find it weird..how I act especially childish around people I know really well. The better you know a person, the more childish you are around the person. Right? I guess its cos you're not afraid of what the person will think of you, cos you already know each other so well..If I'm still in the getting-to-know-one-another phase with somebody, I generally tend to be more serious and less crappy. I'm guessing its the same for everyone else..

Yep anyway it was great catching up with them..xinli told me how happy she had been to hear I was going to tasmania to study..she said she never ever saw me as the "engineering type". hmm I don't know how she came to that conclusion but cindy agreed with her...then again cindy was behaving a bit crazily yesterday so I shouldn't bring her thoughts into the picture..haha. I was comparing hostel fees with them...and concluded that my 1-week hostel fees in tasmania are more than 1 month of cindy's hostel fees at NTU!Aah thats a lot of money. Feeling really guilty. But like my uncle said, the best way to repay my parents would be to study my hardest in australia.

I'm hungry. And I just had lunch an hour ago. Ok time to go find food. 33 hours to US!

nicole: hello dear!haven't heard from you in awhile:( hope u're doing fine!:) haha yep a lot of people say that my younger sister looks very mature for her age..but my elder sis and younger sis are 9 years apart!!heh take a guess!who do you think is my younger sister?
clot: haha cheer up!in the future as rich doc clot, you'll have a lot a lot of s'pore fees!:)
yahui: haha yeah it was during a band bbq in j2 I think..I still remember it cos it was so funny..and Ian Sheng looked really blur.. :)
cheng: Haha she does not look scary la!You're the coward..:)yeah my sister was pretty upset over the poor piggy..she keeps his ashes in a small urn on her desk..
Jia Min: hey thanks:)I'll try to keep a smile on my face and maintain a positive attitude:)I'm still scared but optimistic now..thanks!:)

~me~ at 4:04 PM

Thursday, November 25, 2004

Me and my sisters!Just felt like posting this.Hmm why does my face look so big? :P

~me~ at 12:07 AM

Wednesday, November 24, 2004

another day gone...I really wonder how my time is slipping by so fast..I spent most of the day with my younger sister..took her to see a skin doctor today about her moles..She's got hundreds of little tiny moles..heh the doctor was teaching us how to tell if a mole was cancerous or just simply a mole. Haha we were highly amused at the way the skin doctor recorded patients' information. The doctor had this little stamp of a human body, and she drew in the spots where my sister's especially large moles were situated.

Hmm I've got a rather large one on the back of my right shoulder. I still remember this happening during one of the RJC band bbqs...

Ian Sheng: GERM!!
germ: what what what??
Ian Sheng: You've got a HUGE beetle on your shoulder!
germ: help!!
Ian Sheng( swats at my shoulder): oh. sorry its just a mole.

Haha I just got off the phone. Lionel told me this story about how he had this irritating mole on the palm of hand. Then he kept scratching at it and it mysteriously disappeared after a long time. Yeah I'm sure that was a mole. Anyway, we went to visit my uncle after the skin doctor. My uncle's a really incredible man. He's been my family GP for as long as I can remember..yeah anyway my sister wanted to get some medicine from him so we paid him a visit..It was a nice little chance to talk to him..He works a typical 8am to 10pm job.He's a great doctor.And a great father. He's also really stressed, although he doesn't really show it. I hope I'm up to the task of being a doctor. I have to be.

I'm still qt apprehensive at the idea of tasmania. My younger sister asked me how I felt about studying overseas. I told her I was excited. And scared. She asked me why I was scared. She told me not to take any crap from people at tasmania if they bullied me. She told me to be strong and to stand up for myself if the anybody there gave me trouble. But I think I'm more scared at the idea of starting a whole new different life in someplace so far from home. But I'm really grateful for my sister's advice.

Its going to be so anticlimatic. I'll be flying off the day right after my elder sister gets married. If my elder sister moves out after the wedding, it'll just be my parents and my younger sister left at home. So sad.

I think I ate too much for dinner. Listening to "Boulevard of broken dreams" by greenday now. Great sad song. And I don't think I got enough sleep yesterday..haha I ended up staying up after my last post yesterday night. My elder sister was watching "My Best Friend's Wedding" on Channel i and I couldn't resist hanging about the tv..its one of my favourite movies and I always get this sad, bittersweet feeling after watching it. Then my younger sister popped into my room at about midnight, saying she was scared to sleep alone. She'd just watched "Shutter". Haha anyway I woke up to her alarm this morning at 730, in time to see her blurry figure slam the alarm off. (I'm blind as a bat without my contacts, ask any of the pple I've been to chalets with) Then I went back to sleep. But when I told her about it this morning, she said that she had slept through her alarm!She'd never woken up, and never switched off her alarm clock!But her alarm clock had mysteriously moved from her left to her right over the night!!So who was the blurry figure that I saw sitting up and switching off her alarm??!ahh.

I just realised its exactly 1 month to christmas eve, exactly 2 months to my birthday(haha *hint hint*), and 3 months to start of the school term at UTAS!

lau hero: haha erm yes all that food sounds delish. I'm doing fine!And you?But so sorry who's this?
clot: Yes I'll miss ECP too after I leave for tasmania! :( But cheer up clot!:) Come back to singapore more often to visit!
andrew: haha yeah I couldn't stop laughing either. And I kept using the fact that he ate my egg tart against him the whole day to get my way.

~me~ at 10:37 PM

I had a fun day!I woke up at about 9, and proceeded to give buster his weekly bath. It took me about an hour to soap, wash and blow him dry. Unfortunately he ran out into the rain after I gave him his bath, so all my hard work went down the drain.

Lionel came over for lunch and we feasted on leftovers. He told me he had bought me an egg tart, and I was really happy. Then he told me he was so hungry that he had eaten it on the way over to my house, and I couldn't stop laughing.

We went to East Coast Park to cycle in the afternoon with my younger sister and her boyfriend!Her boyfriend's pretty smart. It was his first time cycling but he could cycle pretty well. It started drizzling but the rain felt pretty cool, so we continued cycling. Then it started to pour, so we stopped at the food centre and got a bite to eat. East Coast Park is so nice now:) There's a new lake and the food centre was completely renovated.

Ok here's something stupid but unforgettable. At the lake, there was a sign with a picture of a fish and a cross over it. It obviously means no fishing right? Well Lionel said that it meant there was no fish in the lake. Smart guy.

Whew I suddenly felt exhuasted on the way home. But it was fun today. 4 more days to US and the nightmarish 24 hour flight!

I need sleep now. Sorry for the short post :P

pips: Hello!aah sorry don't think I can meet you until after my US trip :( But we'll definitely meet soon k!you're only free for dinner and weekends issit?
clot: haha yep nice pics!Yeah I know lynn looks spastic in that photo..haha why do you think I put it up?:) oops don't tell her I said that!:)
lynn: haha thanks!haha I just hope I survive the plane ride there. yep your tongue looks really long!you look like you're trying to lick hui chee! :) haha.
ruth: hey thats great!go there more often to play the piano then!:) I've only heard your piano a few times but its enough to know what a pity it is to let great talent go to waste..hey good luck for your exams ya!study hard but have fun!:)
yahui: haha thanks!heh all the photos on your blog are so sweet too!unfortunately I don't have your talent to make up my blog so nicely... :)

~me~ at 1:19 AM

Sunday, November 21, 2004

happy birthday lynn!:)

~me~ at 2:36 AM

lynn the clown.

~me~ at 2:36 AM

Another day seemed to fly past..but it was another good day :) I started off with tuition in the morning..It was my last tuition session with my SJI student for a while..He's going off to korea next week and I'll be going off to US..I really do enjoy teaching him. He's actually kind of rebellious in that he always insists on doing things his way, but I do get a sense of satisfaction after lessons with him. He's also Yuhong's brother, so tuition with him also means a chance to talk rubbish with her after that. Haha her whole family is as nice and funny as her. So happy and light-hearted. I still remember sitting next to Yuhong in sec 3. Ahh she was the literal clown of the class. I won't forget how she kept me awake during boring lessons with her fake accents and ridiculous jokes about herself. Haha she's doing mass com now. I can just imagine her hosting some chinese entertainment show on television :)

I'll miss tuition. It was work but most times it didn't really feel like work. Anyway, Yuhong was telling me about tasmania today..Her family went there a couple of years ago. Haha she remembers that the airport was so tiny it was ridiculous. There's only one docking bay and the whole airport's about as big as the lobby in her apartment. But she highlighted that the people in tasmania are very nice. I'm still scared though.

I finally got around to submitting my withdrawal forms and documents to NUS yesterday morning..don't know why I kept putting it off. I think on some level, I'm really sad to be leaving NUS and Singapore. Lionel commented how weird it was that I was feeling so sad leaving NUS. Cos he remembers me complaining endlessly about NUS and their super later replies to applications just before school started..Haha I wonder if the administrative lady found it weird that I was withdrawing on the week of final exams..It felt weird to be back at NUS again. I can't believe I only studied there for 3 months. Despite the terrible and ridiculous workload, I'll miss NUS.

I was glad to hear from Kian today. They had just ended physics paper. I hope this week flies by cos this time next week my class will be alot happier!:) Keep it up guys!Good luck to all the NUS people!

Hmm I realised at church today that I wouldn't be going to mass for the next 3 weeks cos of my US trip. I hope I'll be able to find a church in tasmania that I'll feel comfortable in. My hall is a catholic residential college, so I'm pretty sure there'll be a church nearby. Hmm I should go check up on it..Heh I was chatting with Chris before mass started at churh today. He told me that he and my sister would probably go to tasmania at the end of next year to trek. I'm so happy. I hope they'll have fun on their upcoming nepal trip. Haha my mom commented that they would be flying all the way there to walk.

My room's still a mess. Ah ok I shall attempt to resume my packing now.

mandy: Haha yes I found you!But only a while ago..before that I was wondering where u had disappeared to.. :( haha I wanted to tag "I love mandy!" but your tagboard wasn't working...oh well. Heh I'm sure I could sqeeze u and deb into my suitcase. Just don't try to sneek any chocolate into australia cos they're pretty strict about food :)
nadine: Hi hi!!Haha thanks!yesh so irritating..but I don't really regret changing it la. The old one had problems on a regular basis. Miss you!:)
ruth: hey dear so nice to hear from you!:)Really miss you..Yeah I'm going to miss my music too. Hey after 6 years we'll get together and try to revive our piano skills!:)Haha. Love ya!:)
cheng: Welcome back!!Haha guess now that u're back from melbourne, u'll go back to terrorising my blog once again:) Don't be lazy!!!hope tisha goes back to her normal happy self soon :(

~me~ at 12:37 AM

Friday, November 19, 2004

I had a happy day!It started off with an early lunch with Lionel..Its always nice spending time with him and Orchard is so much more enjoyable on weekdays:) Although Orchard today was kind of crowded with a lot of O level students. Guess a lot of them are finally free. I was complaining that bus 190 to orchard was overtaken by all the SJI guys :P Haha sorry Lionel. My sister's qt glad cos tmr's finally her last O Levels paper!I'm happy for her..

I met up with lynn, debra, hui chee & yulinda later on..to celebrate lynn's birthday and to welcome yulinda back to civilisation!Haha yulinda's quote of the day was " Yes I'm back in civilisation!" Haha I didn't realise how backward Indonesia is. But I was really glad to be in her comical presence once again. I probably won't see her for more than a year. Cos she'll only be back next June. I'll probably be in hibernation in tasmania at that time.

Anyway, I hope you enjoyed the cake today lynn!Haha she was scolding me for being late to meet them, when in fact I was only late because I had been buying her birthday cake!Happy birthday in advance!:)

I'm really glad I got the oppurtunity to know the saxophone girls so much better in RJC. I'll miss all of you when I go to tasmania.

I was playing around with my mp3 player. Figured out how to record live voices and I exoerimented recording some of my piano songs. Realised that I'm pretty hard on the keys at times..I wish I could bring my piano along with me to tasmania. Haha debra suggested that I hide her in my suitcase when I go to tasmania this december. I wish I could too deb :)

It was a great day. But I also feel sad at the thought of all that I'm leaving behind.

~me~ at 12:21 AM

Wednesday, November 17, 2004

My room is now a mess. Really. There are clothes, toiletries, papers littered everywhere. Haha its mostly stuff for tasmania and my trip to the US. Here's my schedule for the upcoming months!
27 Nov-12 Dec : USA!!!
13 Dec-15 Dec : cn5a class chalet :)
20 Dec- 23 Dec : Trip to Tasmania to settle all the accomodation and fees.
25 Dec : CHRISTMAS!!:)
19 Feb : Wedding bells for my sister!I love weddings.. :)
20 Feb : Goodbye Singapore. Hello Tasmania.
21 Feb : Start of school term..
Wow my december is going to fly by. Yep so I'll be pre-packing a bunch of stuff to bring to Tasmania..They said I could store a box there until school starts next year..I never realised how much I would need to bring over. I've had friends going overseas to study complain to me about packing difficulties before, but I never realised just how much stuff I would need to pack. I'll miss a lot of stuff here in Singapore. Starting with the food!

Haha I went on another food tour with Cindy yesterday afternoon. She started off with fried chicken from far east, followed by a yam pie from old chang kee, then we trooped over to taka for crystal jade paos, and ended off with sushi. The fried chicken at far east was really good!Its a new place. The service was pretty inefficient (the queue was really really long) but well worth the wait. The chicken had this powdery peppery MSG-laden spice sprinkled all over which was unhealthy but savoury. Very nice. Go try it if you haven't. :) Its right opposite the waffle place. Anyway, if I think back to our route yesterday..we started off at taka, walked to far east, back to taka, then went on to HMV, and centerpoint, then back to taka again where cindy wanted to buy her mini christmas tree for her hall room. No wonder my feet were kind of aching yesterday night. The tree she bought was really cute. Only about half a metre tall and completely bare. I think it'll really brighten up her room. I had a really nice time catching up with her. I really enjoy listening to her funny stories and making fun of her silly antics. We got to talking about how we both miss rgs. I miss rj and she misses ac. Sigh.

I shall go pack my room now.

~me~ at 1:37 PM

Tuesday, November 16, 2004

Lex died yesterday morning :( My sister was qt sad. But life goes on. Chris says its all part of life. He told us that guinea pigs are especially prone to illness since they reproduce like crazy. I remember a previous neighbour who had about 40 guinea pigs running around his garden once..they all got wiped out at once because of some disease. That's so sad, but I guess its life.

I wonder if animals go to heaven as well. When I picture heaven, I can't exactly see guinea pigs or dogs running around. I imagine heaven to be peaceful, quiet and happy. But maybe thats just the stereotypical belief. Or I'm painting the picture that everyone believes. My mother's a free thinker, and I asked her what she thought would happen to her after death. She said that she didn't really worry or think about "life" after death. She said that as long as she had done nothing in her life to harm another human being, she didn't have anything to worry about. But I wonder if she does believe in heaven as well. I find it hard to believe that she has never thought about what happens after death. Maybe normal people don't think too much about it. Or maybe I think too much about it.

ok why am I having such weird thoughts today?!

Lets move on to happier topics. I went shopping with my mom for winter clothing yest!She bought me some sweaters and a pair of jeans. I think my mom's a really smart shopper. She knows where to get cheap stuff and she knows how to bargain. Haha I remember when I went with her to Shanghai last year..She managed to bargain with the shopowners until about 10% of the original prices..Haiyo I was kind of embarrassed to be seen with her, but also happy cos we had a very fruitful trip there. And the quality of Shanghai stuff is really impressive! I bought a leather wallet for about S$4 and I've been using it for more than a year. Think piracy is out of control there. They sell pirated goods at well-known commercialised departmental stores. Its ridiculous. But good for shoppaholics like my mom.

Gotta go now..meeting Cindy later!:)
lynn and meiling:Thanks so much!!:)
noelle: Hey nolly!!:)Yep I'm qt busy now preparing to leave..but I think I haven't really started preparing emotionally to leave..thanks!

~me~ at 12:49 PM

Monday, November 15, 2004

My sister and Lex

~me~ at 2:37 AM

Alf

~me~ at 2:36 AM

My sister's guinea pig, Lex, caught pneumonia..She was really upset..We brought him to the animal hospital..I found the whole atmosphere there very sad..there were all these animals locked up in cages, and they all looked in really bad shapes..there was this puppy with an IV attached to his front paw, and he just kept staring at me with his big sad eyes..Sigh.If I'm this sad seeing all these animals in pain, how on earth am I going to face life as a doctor?

Anyway, Lex has a 50% chance of survival. He was hooked up on oxygen, and he was taking really deep heaving breaths. He kept making these tiny squealing noises..My elder sister was so upset to see him in that much pain. I know some people feel that its silly to be so sad over an animal, but its really upsetting for my sister..she's such an animal lover, she gave up eating meat. She treats all her pets as her children! Heh I remember,3 years ago, the day I went with her to the pet shop to select and buy guinea pigs. She had wanted to buy them as a christmas present for Chris. I remember holding tiny babies Alf and Lex in my hands and putting them in a box, and holding on to them while she drove us home.

Haha and Chris was so happy to see them on Christmas Day!I don't think I'll ever forget that day..Alf actually escaped from his cage and ran off into the garden!We were in a panic..my sister kept muttering "Oh no I hope the cat doesn't eat up poor Alf.." We spent a couple of hours hunting throught the garden..and thank goodness we found him wandering around in the neighbour's garden...poor Alf was shivering and pretty traumatised..Haha..

We left Lex at the hospital, then came home and went to work cleaning up the guinea pig cage and bathing buster..the doctor said that there's a high probabilty that Alf and Lady(my sister's third guinea pig which she got later) will get pneumonia too since they were in the same cage as Lex... :( really hope that doesn't happen..

Think Buster realises something's wrong. He's been especially sad and whiny today. Oh yes and he figured out how to nudge the whiteboard aside. He first rams into the whiteboard, then shoves his nose into the tiny crack and pushes it to a side. He's devious. And too smart for his own good..So he's back to rummaging through trash and stealing food from the kitchen again..

Haha after paying the bill at the hospital today, chris told me I should have become a vet. They earn heaps of money. Oh and they actually had a burial site in the front of the hospital, where they keep the ashes of all the dead animals..I saw pictures, flowers and toys arranged around the shrine. Its so sweet, but sad at the same time..I just hope poor Lex makes it through the night..

~me~ at 1:57 AM

Sunday, November 14, 2004

sorry its been awhile since my last update..feels like a lot's happened in the last few days..

where to start...ok I went to my cousin's wedding!The wedding dinner was held at Merchant Court Hotel, and the food was was really good!It's the best food I've had in a wedding for as long as I can remember..heh I love weddings..when I was younger, I always saw weddings as a chance simply to run around and have fun with other kids..but now that I'm older and I understand more about what's actually happening during a wedding, I've learnt how to better appreciate weddings for what they really are:) My cousin met his bride only a year ago!that means they met, dated, got engaged and planned the wedding all in the span of one year. I was kind of surprised to hear that. But then again they're a lot older than me, so I guess they would know better what to look for in a mate and can think more clearly and logically about what they're doing. Weddings always make me happy. But I just hope the bride and groom enjoyed it too. They're the ones who are running around the whole time. I'm looking forward to my sister's wedding!I just pray that she has a good time and doesn't get too stressed planning it..Haha wonder when I'll get the chance to settle down. I'll be 26 by the time I graduate. And I'll probably work for at least a couple of years before I'm ready to settle down. Haha anyway that's a long while away..

For now, I'll just concentrate on the present. I received the official letter from UTAS yesterday..So I guess its really official. Its starting to sink in slowly now. At least I can get some stuff done now. Like withdraw from NUS and deal with all my living accomodations at tasmania. But the bad news is that I'll be missing orientation week..Orientation starts on Feb 14..but there's no way I'm missing my sister's wedding on feb 19. I was pretty touched when my elder sister told me she didn't mind if I missed her wedding to go for orientation. She said she didn't want me going into school not knowing anybody. But the choice is pretty obvious to me.. :) Thanks anyway da jie :)

Oh and HAPPY BIRTHDAY CASSANDRA!!!haha its now 1130pm. You said this afternoon that you were born 1115pm 19 years ago. Yep I had a good time meeting up with the rgs girls today to celebrate cassandra's birthday..It was a small group of us, compared to previous outings, but I guess a lot of people are studying hard at home for exams..I felt qt sad to hear everyone so stressed out over exams. But I'll pray hard for everybody!Jia you guys!Just a few weeks more:)

One more thing..here are a couple of my mom's tips for driving safely...
1) You don't drive into trees, cos trees don't move.
2) If you need to change lanes, wait and look out for a nice-looking lady driver to give way to you.

pips: haha no he doesn't!Chris is a lot fatter. Haha no la. They're both as playful and crazy. But seriously they don't look alike!yep buster's the same breed as tisha!
ruth: yep so far its working :) heh wonder how long it'll last though. I feel like I haven't heard from you in a long time!:( don't get too stressed over exams k!Take care I miss you!:)
clot: Haha unfortunately buster isn't very interested in anyone who doesn't offer him food..I told him you said hello!hey yulinda told us u guys are on mid-sem break now right?enjoy life!:)
lynn: hey now that you mention it, I think so too!!haha. Think Chris is balding at a faster rate though :P Hey I'll prob see you this wed!yay yulinda's in town!:)

~me~ at 2:27 AM

Thursday, November 11, 2004

sad buster... :(

~me~ at 12:49 AM

My elder sister, me, buster trying to look sophisticated, and chris(my sister's fiance)

~me~ at 12:48 AM

I spent most of the day with my mom today..She got an mc from work cos her voice is practically gone..I guess stockbrokers need to use the phone pretty often so they figured she was better off resting at home..haha she was still pretty loud today as usual though..I think its nice to spend some time with her alone since it gives us time to talk..

Haha today we figured out a way to keep buster out of the kitchen..Our kitchen door's faulty, hence useless as a barrier between buster and the food we keep lying around all the time :) He's really such a greedy pig. Once, I made a sandwich for breakfast and left it on the table..I turned around to get a glass of water..when I turned back to the table my sandwich was gone. And Buster was sitting next to the table staring at me with his puppy dog eyes. Sigh. Another time he gobbled up all the macaroni we had left on the table for dinner. No wonder he seems to be putting on weight..

Anyway, we placed an old whiteboard in the doorway of the kitchen..so now we have to climb over it everytime we enter the kitchen..Buster was in a bad mood the whole day, whining and crying cos he couldn't enter the kitchen. Poor guy..
My mom (in a hoarse voice): "Haha lets see you try to get around this!Give up I'm smarter than you!" *sticks out tongue*
Buster: "...." (stares back at her with those puppy dog eyes)

I predict he'll take at most a week to figure out a way around the whiteboard...either by jumping over it or nosing it aside somehow. He's so smart. :) Hmm I wonder if my mom has an mc for a sore throat or a childish problem. And people wonder why I'm childish. Thanks mom..

lionel: ok JAP pancake. Does it matter to you? Ha you gobble it down in one bite anyway..
andrew: Stop sounding gay on my blog :)
clot: *hug* :) Miss ya!

~me~ at 12:11 AM

Wednesday, November 10, 2004

I just read huichee's and clot's blog..about the raffles spirit and missing the good old days so much..I've never really thought of myself as being a very patriotic or enthusiastic person when it came to school or class events..but thinking back,I definitely felt a certain sense of belonging to the raffles family, esp coming from both rgs and rj. I might not have shown it much but I definitely felt it.

I didn't feel very scared or uncertain when I moved on from pri sch to rgs, or from rgs to rj, probably because I already knew a lot of people going to rgs and rjc..But I guess thats not too good too, cos it meant hanging out with the same people in my own little comfort zone. Maybe thats why I was kind of apprehensive about starting university, because I would be starting school in a completely different environment for the first time. But things turned out more than fine:) and I hope that I'll be happy in tasmania as well. I won't ever forget the good old days though, back when I was young and ignorant..
to my dear rgssb batchmates: I love you guys!
to so3L : We had good times!Special thanks to cheng and pips for planning the great halloween party!:)
to cn5A : I miss you guys!Looking forward to the chalet:)Best of luck for exams:)

Anyway, I went to town today..haha and it kind of made me realise how much I'll enjoy the quiet life in tasmania. I really hate crowds, esp crowds in orchard on weekends..It felt so good to roam freely without the hassle of worrying about bumping into someone..also, it was so much easier to find seats at eating places and there were no annoying long queues! Haha Lionel's appetite still ceases to amaze me though. After a satisfying lunch, we toured taka and he ended up eating a chinese pancake, 3 sticks of yakitori, and an order of fries for an afternoon snack. Sigh I'll miss the food in Singapore. And I'll miss scolding Lionel for eating too fast. :(

~me~ at 12:14 AM

Tuesday, November 09, 2004

It ocurred to me today...these are probably the last few months I'll be spending with my dog..Buster's already 7..He'll probably be in dog heaven by the time I return from tasmania :(

And I was talking to my maid too..she's been with my family since I was 12..There's a big chance she won't be around too when I get back..hmm but I guess a lot of things will be different when I return.I'll be different.My sister would have been married for 6 years!I'll probably be an aunt by then.Woah I suddenly feel so old.I'm going to be an auntie!hmm can't imagine my elder sister as a mom though...

Let me try to list down what I see happening in 6 years..
Good points
1) I'll be a doctor. (hopefully)
2) I'll probably be an aunt.
3) My parents can finally retire.
4) I'll be more independant. :)
Bad points
5) I would have forgotten how to play the piano. :(
6) I would have completely lost my drumming skills.
7) Buster would be in doggy heaven eating all the food he wants.
8) I'd be melting in Singapore weather after 6 years in tasmania.
9) I'd have completely lost the ability to speak mandarin. (come to think of it, that's pretty much the case now too.) haha I'd possibly have an accent..
10) Lea (my maid) would have returned to Phillipines.
11) I would have missed seeing the birth of my sister's children.

Hmm of course, the good points make up for a lot of the bad points, since they all affect me in the long run. I've got to learn to be less emotional, and less sentimental.

Ok this doesn't have much to do with the previous paragraphs...I've been having a recurring dream these couple of nights..It isn't very long, and doesn't make much sense.I only remember flying.I recall myself soaring straight up into the air, and swooping past clouds, like superman! Thats all I can call to mind. Heh maybe God's trying to tell me something. Wish I could fly in reality. That would rock. Then again I get airsick..

yahui: thanks!I'm looking forward to the scenary too..but I'll definitely miss all of you in singapore... :)
cheng: haha I'm really touched cheng!I hope you can get over your seasick-ness by next year too!I could always make the 2 hour trip to melbourne from tasmania too!:)hope you'll have fun on your melbourne trip tmr.
debra: haha yep. In other words, you're telling me I've got a baby face right?:)
clot: haha thanks!but do you mean I looked cute as a kid or I look cute now?!:)
pips: haha yep but I'm nostalgic pretty much most of the time!esp these few weeks..I am happy though.thanks!:)
meiling: hello meiling!!!haha yes it came as a sudden sursprise to me too..life continues to surprise me at many turns.thank you!

~me~ at 12:07 AM

Sunday, November 07, 2004

I miss my favourite strawberry pajamas...

~me~ at 1:18 AM

my younger sister looks so cute....:)

~me~ at 1:15 AM

me and my elder sis...

~me~ at 1:14 AM

haha I was going through my photo albums..came across these baby photos..in many ways, I do wish I was a kid again..I wouldn't have to think so much, I wouldn't have to study so much, I wouldn't have to worry about the future..it would be play play play everyday!haha I remember a lot of the ridiculously fun things me and my sisters would do..how we'd slide down the stairs on mattresses, how we'd attempt to do somersaults while jumping on our beds..of course we fought over stupid things too, but I guess thats all part of being a kid.

But in a tiny way, I'm glad that I've grown older, glad that I've learnt more about life, glad that I'm no longer as ignorant and blur about the world as I was when I was a child.. hmm but I think its always important to maintain a childish part of yourself..cos if you think like an adult all your life you'd just go crazy.Thats what I think anyway..haha my mom's pretty childish at times..like when she chases buster around the dining room table, makes funny faces at him or teases me when I wear my "wo shi mei nu" shirt..in fact, sometimes I think she's getting more childish as she grows older.. thats good:)

hmm a friend told me he could imagine me as a paedeatrician:)he said that I had the kind of face that children would want to approach..haha does that mean I look childish?Kian said that I looked exactly the same as a kid as I do now..hmm and not too long ago yongxiang mentioned I looked kiddy...Lionel says he thinks of me as a little girl too.hmm I need to change my image..

haha my mom happened to have a friend(mahjong kakee)who studied at uni of tas over at dinner tonight..he was telling us how ulu tasmania is..its as big as peninsular malaysia but has a total population of 300,000. 100,000 of that total population resides in Hobart, the biggest city in tasmania..the second biggest city, Launceston, is as big as Ang Mo Kio..haha he says peak "hour" in Hobart lasts for about 5 minutes..haha I am looking forward to the peace and serenity, but I will seriously have no life there man...

To all of you muggers..jia you!!!:)

~me~ at 12:57 AM

Saturday, November 06, 2004

sigh my parents are quarreling again..I understand how every couple has their problems and fights, but I hate it when they drag me and my sisters into the whole big mess..all that nonsense about "please tell your father its time for dinner" from my mom when she was just in the same room with him..or my mom scolding my sister for ridiculous things to vent her anger..why can't parents understand how difficult it is for children to see them fight?I guess I'll never really understand the way parents think until I'm one myself..I hope I never put my children through the same thing..

A friend reminded me of how little time I would have for family next time as a doctor..I just hope I'll be able to balance my time between work and my family in the future..I would want to spend time with my children, to be there for their first words, to be there for their first days of school..but I'll also have to live up to my responsibility of being a doctor, by giving time to my patients when they need me to, by trying to put myself in their shoes..anyway, I haven't even started med school yet!it'll be quite some time before I can settle down into a family and a steady job..so why am I thinking about this now?I think too much..

anyway, I had an enjoyable time today..haha actually it was more of me disturbing my classmates..I joined them at arts canteen during lunch at 12, then we all had some time to kill before our next class at 2..haha normal chem engineering students would spend that time wisely by mugging, but I guess my class isn't normal..we ducked into an empty classroom..where Qingyi immediately whipped out a deck of cards.. :) oh well at least bridge is pretty intellectual..

haha at the next table, yinshuo was trying to teach me how to play table soccer.. as expected, I was pretty lousy at it.. but I was fairly entertained by the table soccer tournament that followed later between JJ, JB and yinshuo.. :) I joined the math tutorial afterwards..I did sense a slight "exam air" in the room..everyone was so quiet and attentive!haha er almost everyone..I was making qt a lot of noise at the back with wanjun and yongxiang.. oops sorry if I was disturbing the class! :P

yep I had a nice time hanging out with cn5a..I'll really miss that when I fly off next year..feeling nostalgic now..thinking about all the times spent in rgs, rjc and NUS...
I just got off the phone with Lionel..he said I sounded sad..hmm but I should be happy!I am truly very lucky to be able to pursue my dreams:)I think I'm too sentimental for my own good sometimes..

cheng: HEY!haha my chinese isn't THAT bad!ok maybe it is...
pips: haha not sure.. really depends on how cute is the guy chasing me :)
clot: hello doc clot!:)haha thanks..yep I'm now part of the club..haha maybe now I can help you with your indo hospital plan!:)
nadine: haha my dad bought it from china!he bought one for himself as well..it says "wo tai shuai le.."
JM: thanks:)yep I'm scared but looking forward to it..you sound happy studying now!I'm glad:)

~me~ at 12:24 AM

Thursday, November 04, 2004

the back...

~me~ at 6:14 PM

the front of my very comfortable shirt...

~me~ at 6:13 PM

Its thursday..almost 1 week after I received the news from tasmania..hmm I'm wondering where my time went to..lets see..I've been packing my room(but its still a mess), I've been reading more on tasmania, and I realise I spend a large portion of my time thinking...

I had lunch with my elder sister..if anything, this week has given me the chance to spend more time with my elder sister and my dog :) I really envy her..She's only 25, but she's getting married & has a steady job..She's one of the few people I know who's doing something she has a real passion for..In our world, its so hard to be able to do something we really want..Most people choose careers for practical reasons, or because they have no idea what they want in life..Isn't it weird how people spend half their lives losing their health to earn money, then spend the other half losing that money to restore their health?

But different pple feel happy with different things in life..My sister feels happy with her job, and she's happy with her fiance. I never really saw myself as a chem engineer..I'm not the kind of person who can work in a laboratory all day..I need to meet people, and I want to interact with people..I predicted myself teaching after completing my 4 years at NUS..but life took an unexpected turn of events..

A conversation with a friend last night made me wonder..why do I want to become a doctor?Yes I want to meet people..but I can meet and help people doing social work or other more easily attainable jobs..I hate to think of myself as wanting to study medicine for monetary reasons, or for the prestige :( but my sister said this, "Yes of course being a doctor will give you financial security, but thats not all it will give you..If you were in this just for money, you would have gone into buisness like mom and pa.." Many jobs come with financial security, but not many can make you feel like you're living a worthwhile life.. I enjoy social work, but at the same time,I also want to make the best use of my talents to make life better for others..hmm but sometimes I feel that I'm too emotional to be a doctor..and I've got to learn to be more decisive..haha being blur and indecisive are definitely not good traits for a doctor..

oops sorry I just realised how serious and lengthy my previous paragraphs sound..sorry to bore all of you with my weird thoughts..ok on a lighter note..I pretty much embarrassed myself yesterday evening when I took my dog out for a walk..I noticed some people smiling or giving me weird looks as I strolled past them..It was only when I got home that I realised why..a picture of the shirt I wore out to walk buster is at the top of this entry...

haha my mom always laughs at me everytime I wear it..I remember I told myself before that I would never wear it out in public..but I guess I was too preoccupied with my thoughts yesterday..

~me~ at 6:07 PM

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

sentosa!!

~me~ at 5:17 PM

Sigh I was tidying up my computer and was going through all the photos I've accumulated in the last 2 months..suddenly felt qt sad about leaving my class..I really had a lot of fun with them in the short 2 months I attended NUS..

hey cn5a pple..if any of you are reading this,I just want you to know how much I enjoyed the times with all of you..whether we were playing games (ie volleyball, blading, captain's ball), having horrendously long laboratory practical days (thanks Kian for doing all the hard stuff while I slacked), standing around (and blocking the way) and talking crap after lectures, having birthday dinners (JJ and weilian), haha even doing ctw with songyao and yongxiang wasn't too bad..when I first entered NUS, I wasn't looking forward to orientation and meeting new pple at all..now I just hope that my new classmates over in tasmania will be half as nice and funny as all of you..I'll really miss all of you:)

I couldn't bring myself to tell you guys in person..I felt so sad sending out that email..haha I felt bad cos you guys are all studying like crazy now..and I'm..erm I don't know how I'm spending my time now actually..time just seems to fly by these days..but I really hope all of you do well for the finals!and don't get too stressed!:)

Life still seems surreal for me now..I feel like this is all happening to another person..and I'm on the outside looking in..Guess it'll take some time for it to sink in..

thanks everyone for your encouraging words.. :)
nadine: haha thank you so much :) yep I'll take your advice & play all the way from now till I leave!I'm looking forward to seeing you when you get back in december!
jing: yep I'm sure I'll learn a lot from this experience..qt scared but excited:) haha maybe its a gd thing I won't be around to drive you around..according to my sisters, I drive too fast! :(
ruth:haha u must be enjoying yourself exploring london..its definitely much more happening than tasmania!
debra:thanks deb!heh dunno why but I suddenly remember you saying at Jing's sendoff..that I would be the one to leave next..
cheng:I'm so happy that you'll be so close by:)haha but knowing us, either one of us would definitely get lost if we tried to make our way toward each other in australia..oh good luck for this saturday!study hard ya!:)
pips:I didn't feel as apprehensive about australia after reading your mail..I'm really thankful for your words and for you as a friend..thanks:)
cora:CORA!!!I didn't know you read my blog:)how have you been?haha you know what..leaving my class now reminds me of how you left so3L in J1..hope you're doing fine:)
andrew:hahaha that sounds awful!he's going to kill you when he sees that..heh but thanks:)life is unexpected..things will turn out for the best for you as well:)
gwenda:HELLO!!!so nice to hear from you..how've you been?haha I'll always remember all those mornings at RJ canteen talking rubbish,sleeping and chionging homework:)

~me~ at 4:26 PM

blading at east coast.. :)

~me~ at 4:24 PM

Monday, November 01, 2004

A lot has happened since my last post...where to start...ok firstly, I'm currently sitting in my dad's study room using his computer cos my computer died!It kept hanging and went completely dead when I tried to restart it..

next important thing that happened...I got accepted into university of tasmania.I felt really weird when I received the news on friday morning...I felt both happy and sad..guess I didn't really expect to be accepted after western australia rejected me..I spent the whole of friday and the weekend thinking..I have to make a decision quick or I won't be concentrating on my final exams at all..

Lionel told me that my mind's actually already made up..I actually think so too, but I'm just feeling confused cos I don't know what's more important to me..my sister outlined it for me..I really want to do medicine, but I really want to stay in Singapore as well..everyone's telling me to make the right decision for the right reasons..

ruth happened to call me yesterday morning from london..she was raving about life there and how much she's learnt and experienced in the short month she's been there..I'm really very happy that you're settling in so nicely ruth!I do think going overseas would be a good oppurtunity for me to learn independance and also to pursue my dreams..so why do I feel so sad?my sister says its natural for me to feel sad at the thought of all that I'm leaving behind..yes I will miss all my wonderful friends who take time out of their busy schedules to read this boring blog, I will miss my family members who have supported me and encouraged me to pursue my dreams..Lionel: I'm sorry I was especially quiet today, but know that I will miss you very much :(

God has truly blessed me by giving me this chance..and I intend to make the most of it..but I can't help feeling happy, scared, apprehensive but excited all at the same time..everything just feels so surreal..I can't believe just 2 days ago, I was still mugging for my chem engineering final exams..sometimes things really don't turn out the way you expect them to..

I checked out all the related tasmanian info online...the studying environment looks really nice, even though the weather's awful..haha my sister's fiance told me his friend studying there put it this way: Its too hot to stay in the sun but too cold without the sun..some pple would prefer city life in melbourne or sydney, but I would actually enjoy the peace in more quiet areas like perth or tasmania..

so has my decision been made?I guess so...people I'll probably be leaving in the third week of february..the week right after my sister's wedding..heh so many happy events!thanks everyone for all the encouragement you've given me:)

I'm basically on holiday now!no more thermodynamics and differentiation and integration... :)

jing: haha buy me a car and I'll drive you around!:)
deb: heh thanks!it'll be your turn next to pass!
nad: haha thank you...I really miss you!it feels like you've been gone for a really long time already :(
pips: erm it would be a bit dangerous to allow a colourblind fellow like you out on the roads...haha kidding!you mean they don't allow you to take drive because you're colourblind?
cheng: haha sure I'll pick you up..if you ever wake up on time!I can't believe you missed our friday lunch AGAIN!!!!haha
lynn: heh thanks!how've you been doing?hope u're not too stressed with school..sigh wonder if i'll be as stressed as you over in tasmania..
nic: haha funny you should mention studying...cos I haven't touched a single book over the weekend!been thinking and thinking the whole time away...I miss you too!

~me~ at 12:08 AM