germy.

Monday, July 19, 2004

I'm feeling pretty nostalgic after reading nolly's blog:)but nostalgic is good right?I don't feel sad at the thought of my rgs and rj days,but only sad at the fact that they're over..it seems like only yesterday I was a blur,short little sec 1 girl,with no worries over career,money or relationships..I was never one to make plans,I just went through each day without thinking ahead..Everything's different now..I don't have the excuse of youth when I make stupid decisions..I have to be responsible for my own actions cos I'm no longer just a young girl with childish fantasies about simply marrying the perfect guy and becoming a tai-tai for life:)Its not just my actions,every word that comes out of my mouth has to be thought through..You never know how much the littlest things you say can hurt a person..Relationships are one of the most fragile things in this world,yet also the most beautiful:)they can make you laugh or cry,hurt you or enlighten you..I treasure all the friendships I have made over the course of my short life,but I know it is not possible to maintain all of them as I grow older..I have so many different groups of friends..each friend brings a different cherished memory to my mind..I feel so sad at the thought of growing old..will all these memories fade?will I forget the feeling of acting silly and childish in class?will I forget how I struggled to stay awake during lectures?will I forget what it was like playing in a band?My parents hardly talk about their childhood friends..they do have friends,but mostly from university or work.(or mahjong:))It will be hard enough to stay friends when everyone is in different universities,and even tougher when each friend is busy with his or her own family and jobs..I may feel close to someone now,but I can't definitely say I'll feel the same way a short while from now..
It'll be even harder to stay close to all my loved ones if I go to australia :p six years is a super long time..I'll be 26 when I finish studying!I was confused before but now I know that I really want to study medicine..I want to work with people,I want to make myself useful to people in the most enriching way possible:)sigh but to do that I'd have to make sacrifices in my own life..(heh the line from spiderman--"with great power comes great responsibility"--involuntarily pops into my mind now)hmm I sincerely hope that if I do get to study medicine,I will grow out of my blur and forgetful ways..I don't think any patient would be willing to come to a doctor who is super slow on the uptake:)the poor patient might die before I even realize he's sitting in front of me :p
Hmm think I'm starting to sound whiny..I'll stop here to spare you guys from reading too much rubbish.

~me~ at 10:56 PM

my search for verve

Monday, July 19, 2004 I'm feeling pretty nostalgic after reading nolly's blog:)but nostalgic is good right?I don't feel sad at the thought of my rgs and rj days,but only sad at the fact that they're over..it seems like only yesterday I was a blur,short little sec 1 girl,with no worries over career,money or relationships..I was never one to make plans,I just went through each day without thinking ahead..Everything's different now..I don't have the excuse of youth when I make stupid decisions..I have to be responsible for my own actions cos I'm no longer just a young girl with childish fantasies about simply marrying the perfect guy and becoming a tai-tai for life:)Its not just my actions,every word that comes out of my mouth has to be thought through..You never know how much the littlest things you say can hurt a person..Relationships are one of the most fragile things in this world,yet also the most beautiful:)they can make you laugh or cry,hurt you or enlighten you..I treasure all the friendships I have made over the course of my short life,but I know it is not possible to maintain all of them as I grow older..I have so many different groups of friends..each friend brings a different cherished memory to my mind..I feel so sad at the thought of growing old..will all these memories fade?will I forget the feeling of acting silly and childish in class?will I forget how I struggled to stay awake during lectures?will I forget what it was like playing in a band?My parents hardly talk about their childhood friends..they do have friends,but mostly from university or work.(or mahjong:))It will be hard enough to stay friends when everyone is in different universities,and even tougher when each friend is busy with his or her own family and jobs..I may feel close to someone now,but I can't definitely say I'll feel the same way a short while from now.. It'll be even harder to stay close to all my loved ones if I go to australia :p six years is a super long time..I'll be 26 when I finish studying!I was confused before but now I know that I really want to study medicine..I want to work with people,I want to make myself useful to people in the most enriching way possible:)sigh but to do that I'd have to make sacrifices in my own life..(heh the line from spiderman--"with great power comes great responsibility"--involuntarily pops into my mind now)hmm I sincerely hope that if I do get to study medicine,I will grow out of my blur and forgetful ways..I don't think any patient would be willing to come to a doctor who is super slow on the uptake:)the poor patient might die before I even realize he's sitting in front of me :p Hmm think I'm starting to sound whiny..I'll stop here to spare you guys from reading too much rubbish. ~me~ at 10:56 PM
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